Void

I wonder if this post will be emo. And by the way, this is the 400th post, so clap for me. Ive never sustained a blog for so long. What have I been blogging about recently, nothing but introspection. I guess it can get boring after a while.

Meanwhile, what I have been thinking about most of the time had been severely chimerical. I have to resort to these to keep myself winsome. maintain some happiness. it's like self-delusion once again. I have sunken into the abyss, and never once again will loneliness bug me because I have hit it's depths and explored it's possiblities. The only hope I have is that there is an end to that bottomless pit , and I will begin my anti-gravity climb as soon as possible. The effects of lonliness are certainly more pernicious than anyone would have expected. I am back to the usual me, but the 'contrast' effect has been really the one that is showing the difference.

I should scrap the whine and begin the introspection. Whatever residues that are left, they must be effaced.

So many things are striking me. Majorly a two-pronged attack, but under closer observation, it is beyond an ordinary two pronged attack. The inherent distancing nature of friendship.

I wonder I wonder.

I have to rush off for a dental appointment, been ages since I fixed the metal in my mouth. Gotta rush. Cya later, and will post again (I hope).