I wanted to blog yesterday but was too tired. Anyway geog was really stupid. I think the paper can be considered easy. However, on one question (which is an essay) question whereby they give you a chpice (Either/Or), and each with a part (a) and part (b). Apparently, I did Part (B) of OR and (A) of Either. In other words, I answered half of each part. Good joke. I was amused by myself. Of course, by sheer carelessness. They said they would decide how they're going to award marks for it and how to mark it. So I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed.
Bla bla black sheep...
Anyway back to the point. I find myself very tired these days. Busy tired, I don't even play enough of piano for daily progress anymore. I feel so sluggish, and fatigue overwhelms.
Yawns.
I think I might be going back to sleep. 3 more weeks and more subjects and 3 papers for each subjects. Nice, three might become a very annoying number. Let's get a big fat axe and chop off all those 3ssss.
Been watching anime yesterday. "welcome to NHK", rather lame one, I don't think it's suited for everyone, (it's not like mainstream bleachruto-ish that at least 80% of people will find it tasteful). The plot's been really unfolding, unfolding, some areas of suspense, (which I like), the whole plot is still very hazy, not much is known but is slowly yet steadily revealing. Been a long time since I indulged in time wasters.
The fact is I feel sleepy now. I slept enough actually but I still sleep. Actually I just woke up.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
Thalweg of doom
Ah, screw geog.
I realize I don't have more than half of geog notes. (woah!) That means bye bye to weathering, bye bye to most of litho. I haven't even done most of hydro. Never touched globalisation. I called Alan, he spent the night watching Tv. (does it have anything to do with channel morphology)So I feel somewhat consoled.
Fortunately, this night was spent not emo, but thinking about meanders. I actually read wiki and various other sites in replacement of proper notes (which I do not have!) and I actually found out where out geog notes come from. (oh wow again!).
I spend the day trying to studying again. I'm the least worried for DRQs because common sense gets you somewhere, I hope they will be kind enough to give us a give away essay.
Ah crap Geog. This holiday is not really much of a holiday for any average joe, let alone someone who 1) skipped all lectures in majority of the subjects 2) done ZERO tutorials for the whole year.
And now I have to find a pen that will last me 3 hours, (and a wrist) it's such a pity I haven't practiced my left hand to a satisfactory standard where I can display ambidextrous abilities in examinations. How sad, I was soooo close, oh wait. Not. Now let's say I do not have the normal human ability to write. Under abilities, mine is listed as scribble. If under the wrath of a blind marker (which under normal human perceptions, means fussy eyes), will negate the effect of whatever that is written. Scribble, is a skill of high velocity, very consistent, but it's drawback includes almost illegible writings. In this case, the skill of "writing" is a lofty goal, up on the mountains. This proves that practice has to start slow. Lazy me, who refused to do penmanship have to live with his scribble ability for the rest of his life.
I think some would gladly label my art of the pen as "word butchering".
Oh it's Friday! (the clock struck twelve minutes ago and I didn't realize). I should be getting some sleep soon. Oh yay! Weekends!. If you're happy and you know it clap your hands!. *silence*. Knocks myself on the wall. It's holidays!
There is absolutely great disparity in temperature in my house right now. the master bed room is experiencing winter and my room is summer. I wonder how both of them can coexist at once.
I'm perspiring like mad now. Oh wait, is that cold sweat.
Anyway, I think geog is a really retarded subject. Just call it Earth science and scrap all that globalization rubbish. If not, scrap all the plate tech and hydro and call it econs. For the fact that there is a canal behind PJC and we never studied it, let alone rivers on the other side of the globe. Oh wait, canals are NOT rivers.
They say the best way to memorize something is to integrate it into common sense. I refuse to have plate movements and meanders in my common sense!!!. I wouldn't mind the san andreas fault so that I'll have someone to blame whenever something goes wrong! lalaa.
I didn't get much into my head. For the fact that information diffusion obviously doesn't exist (transfer of information from a region of higher density to a region of lower density.). I could try burning my notes, and diluting them into water and drink it all up. Or I could try the classic of sleeping with the notes/book on your head.
Now why don't I buy the latest Sony MicroSD 100GB for the brain.
My brain juices are probably in helicoidal flow. Very soon, there will be meanders and tomorrow I won't be in school because by the time an ox bow lake will be formed in my brain and the standard processes like walking,talking,waking up will be cut of from the main stream and isolated such that I will instantaneousness die on the spot.
For now, let me just go sleep. Call the WAAAAmbulance if I don't wake up.
I realize I don't have more than half of geog notes. (woah!) That means bye bye to weathering, bye bye to most of litho. I haven't even done most of hydro. Never touched globalisation. I called Alan, he spent the night watching Tv. (does it have anything to do with channel morphology)So I feel somewhat consoled.
Fortunately, this night was spent not emo, but thinking about meanders. I actually read wiki and various other sites in replacement of proper notes (which I do not have!) and I actually found out where out geog notes come from. (oh wow again!).
I spend the day trying to studying again. I'm the least worried for DRQs because common sense gets you somewhere, I hope they will be kind enough to give us a give away essay.
Ah crap Geog. This holiday is not really much of a holiday for any average joe, let alone someone who 1) skipped all lectures in majority of the subjects 2) done ZERO tutorials for the whole year.
And now I have to find a pen that will last me 3 hours, (and a wrist) it's such a pity I haven't practiced my left hand to a satisfactory standard where I can display ambidextrous abilities in examinations. How sad, I was soooo close, oh wait. Not. Now let's say I do not have the normal human ability to write. Under abilities, mine is listed as scribble. If under the wrath of a blind marker (which under normal human perceptions, means fussy eyes), will negate the effect of whatever that is written. Scribble, is a skill of high velocity, very consistent, but it's drawback includes almost illegible writings. In this case, the skill of "writing" is a lofty goal, up on the mountains. This proves that practice has to start slow. Lazy me, who refused to do penmanship have to live with his scribble ability for the rest of his life.
I think some would gladly label my art of the pen as "word butchering".
Oh it's Friday! (the clock struck twelve minutes ago and I didn't realize). I should be getting some sleep soon. Oh yay! Weekends!. If you're happy and you know it clap your hands!. *silence*. Knocks myself on the wall. It's holidays!
There is absolutely great disparity in temperature in my house right now. the master bed room is experiencing winter and my room is summer. I wonder how both of them can coexist at once.
I'm perspiring like mad now. Oh wait, is that cold sweat.
Anyway, I think geog is a really retarded subject. Just call it Earth science and scrap all that globalization rubbish. If not, scrap all the plate tech and hydro and call it econs. For the fact that there is a canal behind PJC and we never studied it, let alone rivers on the other side of the globe. Oh wait, canals are NOT rivers.
They say the best way to memorize something is to integrate it into common sense. I refuse to have plate movements and meanders in my common sense!!!. I wouldn't mind the san andreas fault so that I'll have someone to blame whenever something goes wrong! lalaa.
I didn't get much into my head. For the fact that information diffusion obviously doesn't exist (transfer of information from a region of higher density to a region of lower density.). I could try burning my notes, and diluting them into water and drink it all up. Or I could try the classic of sleeping with the notes/book on your head.
Now why don't I buy the latest Sony MicroSD 100GB for the brain.
My brain juices are probably in helicoidal flow. Very soon, there will be meanders and tomorrow I won't be in school because by the time an ox bow lake will be formed in my brain and the standard processes like walking,talking,waking up will be cut of from the main stream and isolated such that I will instantaneousness die on the spot.
For now, let me just go sleep. Call the WAAAAmbulance if I don't wake up.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
ROFL-copter
I know random title again. But I'm really curious about it's origin.
Anyway Geog paper tomorrow, and I still haven't touch lithospheric and global geog. Aww nuts.
And I don't even know I have the notes for certain parts of them. Aww nuts X2.
And I'm like left with a few hours? NUTS X3
I haven't even completed reading hydro!!! nuts X 4
I don't feel like studying AT ALL. nuts X 100000.
Nut combo! Nuts X (6.0 X 10^24)
Goes nuts...
Please. Send a rofl-copter and save me
Anyway Geog paper tomorrow, and I still haven't touch lithospheric and global geog. Aww nuts.
And I don't even know I have the notes for certain parts of them. Aww nuts X2.
And I'm like left with a few hours? NUTS X3
I haven't even completed reading hydro!!! nuts X 4
I don't feel like studying AT ALL. nuts X 100000.
Nut combo! Nuts X (6.0 X 10^24)
Goes nuts...
Please. Send a rofl-copter and save me
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Ugh
I cried twice today.
I mean teared.
Chilli went into my eyes. Twice! lunch and dinner. First time, a spark of chilli particle (or several random molecules), splashed into my eye as I was carelessly squirting the chilli onto the food. Second time was when I was unwrapping this packet of oily chilly for my beef rice and then I used my hand to rub my eyes. I teared, badly. Imagine if you can, your eyes chewing on a mint, that was how I felt.
I don't know.
I didn't accomplish much today. Both on the piano and academically.
I want to sleep soon. I'm exhausted. every aspect, mentally, physically and emotionally.
Why do I sense indifference.
I mean teared.
Chilli went into my eyes. Twice! lunch and dinner. First time, a spark of chilli particle (or several random molecules), splashed into my eye as I was carelessly squirting the chilli onto the food. Second time was when I was unwrapping this packet of oily chilly for my beef rice and then I used my hand to rub my eyes. I teared, badly. Imagine if you can, your eyes chewing on a mint, that was how I felt.
I don't know.
I didn't accomplish much today. Both on the piano and academically.
I want to sleep soon. I'm exhausted. every aspect, mentally, physically and emotionally.
Why do I sense indifference.
Qwertyuiop
Random title LALALA
Restless. I need to get some studying done. But it's raining, and it's affecting my mood. no!!. wait, it's going to rain.
I've been playing the same piece the entire morning, feels as if my fingers are going to die from spammage. Ahhh
Restless. I need to get some studying done. But it's raining, and it's affecting my mood. no!!. wait, it's going to rain.
I've been playing the same piece the entire morning, feels as if my fingers are going to die from spammage. Ahhh
Confuse ray
Let's see. I didn't blog for maybe a day or two (I can't remember, and lazy to check). I did try, somehow my com died on me before I could post it. Granted, it's probably still in drafts, but I don't think I would want to post an overdue post.
So I'm feeling sleepy now. In fact, super hyper sleepy. I didn't sleep well last night. Pellets of thoughts came crashing into my mind, rendering me unable to fall asleep regardless of how fatigued I was. (I was tired!). Was it rage? Was it confusion? What was it? I know in my dream I keep hearing the 1st Movement of Beethoven's Tempest. I was even playing it. Had not much of a dream, I woke up with a sore head (marked with fatigue, still, sadly).
Holidays are totally awesome! I mean, wake up at 10 plus and still have ample time to do all the stuff you want. Geog paper is in two days, I really got to start working something out. Hoho, I just managed to finish all 8 chapters of Hydro (almost, left fragments here and there), in the past two days, which I guess, is quite intense for a slacker like me. [I intend not to study human geog, and study briefly for litho, that should grant me a pass, I hope]
I don't really know what to blog about. Part of me doesn't want to do any work today. Part of me wants to sleep. Part of me feels emo. I'm a really confused right now. And the fatigue and headache sets in, then the cycle of confusion repeats and I will probably find myself doomed on Friday.
Seriously, what am I doing?
So I'm feeling sleepy now. In fact, super hyper sleepy. I didn't sleep well last night. Pellets of thoughts came crashing into my mind, rendering me unable to fall asleep regardless of how fatigued I was. (I was tired!). Was it rage? Was it confusion? What was it? I know in my dream I keep hearing the 1st Movement of Beethoven's Tempest. I was even playing it. Had not much of a dream, I woke up with a sore head (marked with fatigue, still, sadly).
Holidays are totally awesome! I mean, wake up at 10 plus and still have ample time to do all the stuff you want. Geog paper is in two days, I really got to start working something out. Hoho, I just managed to finish all 8 chapters of Hydro (almost, left fragments here and there), in the past two days, which I guess, is quite intense for a slacker like me. [I intend not to study human geog, and study briefly for litho, that should grant me a pass, I hope]
I don't really know what to blog about. Part of me doesn't want to do any work today. Part of me wants to sleep. Part of me feels emo. I'm a really confused right now. And the fatigue and headache sets in, then the cycle of confusion repeats and I will probably find myself doomed on Friday.
Seriously, what am I doing?
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Holidays!
And so the long awaited june holidays are here and usual I feel disturbingly "holidayeesque". I cannot settle down to study anything despite geog paper being a few days away (yes, it is planted during the holidays). It's like a double-edged sword. But who cares, by the nature of the subject (H1), it is already naturally self explanatory how it seems half as important as all the rest of the subjects. But not like I have ownage H2s, so I cannot whine.
And so the day passed very swiftly for me today. I didn't like today, in fact, time zoomed passed too fast for my taste. I just had dinner at somewhere near Ikea and it's been sometime since I had rather decent chinese standard "restaurant" food, which was satisfying but a sheer waste of time. Like I've said, I've studied (still..) zero content for geography, and all I have been doing is been on the clavier.
But holidays are here and I shall just let free fall take it's place and as gravity pulls me into black holidayeesque hole (of doom). Only when the pressure settles in and panic starts to overwhelm will I get my lazy bum off the bed (or computer chair whatsoever) to my notes.
It's not that late now, but I feel totally drained.
Random, but right now at this point I'm starting to think of who actually reads my blogs. (do me a favor, if you visit, please tag to tell me you have visited). and no one will tag as usual. or wait, have my blog been in a ghost town state for sometime?
Ah yes the fact that I don't post routine events cause me to have a lot lesser to blog about.
Oh yes, Friday. I ponned geog! Oh and Gp paper was like the funniest thing ever. I wrote Q12 which was about music's place in modern life. If I feel as if I'm going to kill somebody if I don't get at least 35 marks for it (upon 50). Paper 2 was bleh, just normal. Easy, but boring. Somehow I think I died in summary (and maybe AQ). I'll just try to keep my 90th percentile, which should be a piece of cake.
Since I've been doing very routine callows about geography and how I haven't studied shit for it. Let me say I'm just aiming for an D. (in case I aim E and get S again).
And yes, HOLIDAYS are here! I am so looking forward to holiday life. No more retarded lectures (where I can't see a single thing), no more having to think of excuses not to be in school. but of course, school has it's worth in many ways. For example, playing Bridge during breaks (or ponning lectures to play bridge), playing the piano in the hall, crapping during class, playing the "word game"with both Jonathans. Thinking of lame stuff, saying lame stuff. Sleeping in the hall, I think all these will convert to wonderful memories.
June is the last official holidays before A levels. ~random fact.
And I have been seriously adept at procrastination recently.
What's this feeling. I don't get it. When our eyes meet it's just like it's there but not there.
And so the day passed very swiftly for me today. I didn't like today, in fact, time zoomed passed too fast for my taste. I just had dinner at somewhere near Ikea and it's been sometime since I had rather decent chinese standard "restaurant" food, which was satisfying but a sheer waste of time. Like I've said, I've studied (still..) zero content for geography, and all I have been doing is been on the clavier.
But holidays are here and I shall just let free fall take it's place and as gravity pulls me into black holidayeesque hole (of doom). Only when the pressure settles in and panic starts to overwhelm will I get my lazy bum off the bed (or computer chair whatsoever) to my notes.
It's not that late now, but I feel totally drained.
Random, but right now at this point I'm starting to think of who actually reads my blogs. (do me a favor, if you visit, please tag to tell me you have visited). and no one will tag as usual. or wait, have my blog been in a ghost town state for sometime?
Ah yes the fact that I don't post routine events cause me to have a lot lesser to blog about.
Oh yes, Friday. I ponned geog! Oh and Gp paper was like the funniest thing ever. I wrote Q12 which was about music's place in modern life. If I feel as if I'm going to kill somebody if I don't get at least 35 marks for it (upon 50). Paper 2 was bleh, just normal. Easy, but boring. Somehow I think I died in summary (and maybe AQ). I'll just try to keep my 90th percentile, which should be a piece of cake.
Since I've been doing very routine callows about geography and how I haven't studied shit for it. Let me say I'm just aiming for an D. (in case I aim E and get S again).
And yes, HOLIDAYS are here! I am so looking forward to holiday life. No more retarded lectures (where I can't see a single thing), no more having to think of excuses not to be in school. but of course, school has it's worth in many ways. For example, playing Bridge during breaks (or ponning lectures to play bridge), playing the piano in the hall, crapping during class, playing the "word game"with both Jonathans. Thinking of lame stuff, saying lame stuff. Sleeping in the hall, I think all these will convert to wonderful memories.
June is the last official holidays before A levels. ~random fact.
And I have been seriously adept at procrastination recently.
What's this feeling. I don't get it. When our eyes meet it's just like it's there but not there.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Holidays are ALMOST here
Almost, almost. One month of juicy holidays right at my door step. Unofficially, holidays begin today. Tomorrow is just GP paper, which is the super easiest paper of all (the, no need to do anything paper), and then there's geog remedial after that but I think I'm ponning geog. Whoohoo! Friday! weekend! then bang boom holiday! I'm feeling so high now, but according to people, not much of a holiday too.
Yesterday I was reading Quantum and then today I realize quantum is only in MCQ for midyears (dang!). What a waste of my time, and I actually was studying something! congrats! And right now I'm brimming with energy but I refuse to do any work, because the holiday mood is engulfing me. Ahhh, help I'm sinking in a really "holidayeesque" mood.
Then now I remember geog paper is like next friday and I haven't studied nuts, everything is in a mess right now, I know almost nuts about rivers and cracks on the floor, NOO!!!!!! For the fact that my notes are not even in place. (I'm starting to wonder if I really have them).
Okay, it's just mid years. I can get through studying minimally. Remember, I can do little work and accomplish more than what I put in. It's called efficiency. C'mon, let's prove maths wasn't a fluke. (still convinced it was). And as usual, I still believe I have no aptitude at science, and it's hard to be born with it, let's just accept that I am not talented in anything to do with science (especially physics).
And I didn't realize. It's ALREADY dark!(not chickens!) I turn around and look at the window, and one moment ago it was still evening. And I should be getting dinner soon.
I don't really know what to blog about. Confusion days, rage, nostalgia, many "I don't know" emotions flooding, and my poor wavering heart. All I can do, is to go mad like a machine on the clavier, I guess I'm still enjoying every moment of it. Academically, I can only do this much till my heart gains (or regains), a certain level of panic, to be able to function properly on those notes. (no pun intended, indirectly, and actually a very complex, multi-link pun).
And come to think of it, when was the last night when I sat down, watched the mindless lifeless television and let my mind wander into nothingness. How long has it been since I took a midnight stroll into the neighborhood, and let myself indulge in the loneliness of the night. Life's been busy, very busy. So many stuff, the clavier, school stuff (though I hardly do anything, but still, being in school takes up a huge chunk of my time!). Many people do think I relax all the way, the fact is I don't.
After posting a very nonsensical post. (which I am inclined to believe that my sentence structure was fundamentally spastic, and nonsensical), back to the clavier till I get some motivation to get from type A notes to the type B notes.
Maybe dinner first. Yum
Yesterday I was reading Quantum and then today I realize quantum is only in MCQ for midyears (dang!). What a waste of my time, and I actually was studying something! congrats! And right now I'm brimming with energy but I refuse to do any work, because the holiday mood is engulfing me. Ahhh, help I'm sinking in a really "holidayeesque" mood.
Then now I remember geog paper is like next friday and I haven't studied nuts, everything is in a mess right now, I know almost nuts about rivers and cracks on the floor, NOO!!!!!! For the fact that my notes are not even in place. (I'm starting to wonder if I really have them).
Okay, it's just mid years. I can get through studying minimally. Remember, I can do little work and accomplish more than what I put in. It's called efficiency. C'mon, let's prove maths wasn't a fluke. (still convinced it was). And as usual, I still believe I have no aptitude at science, and it's hard to be born with it, let's just accept that I am not talented in anything to do with science (especially physics).
And I didn't realize. It's ALREADY dark!
I don't really know what to blog about. Confusion days, rage, nostalgia, many "I don't know" emotions flooding, and my poor wavering heart. All I can do, is to go mad like a machine on the clavier, I guess I'm still enjoying every moment of it. Academically, I can only do this much till my heart gains (or regains), a certain level of panic, to be able to function properly on those notes. (no pun intended, indirectly, and actually a very complex, multi-link pun).
And come to think of it, when was the last night when I sat down, watched the mindless lifeless television and let my mind wander into nothingness. How long has it been since I took a midnight stroll into the neighborhood, and let myself indulge in the loneliness of the night. Life's been busy, very busy. So many stuff, the clavier, school stuff (though I hardly do anything, but still, being in school takes up a huge chunk of my time!). Many people do think I relax all the way, the fact is I don't.
After posting a very nonsensical post. (which I am inclined to believe that my sentence structure was fundamentally spastic, and nonsensical), back to the clavier till I get some motivation to get from type A notes to the type B notes.
Maybe dinner first. Yum
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Priorities and Anti Priorities
I have to start studying something soon...
Dear blog, there are tons of things I would like to talk to you about, but I don't want the whole world reading. In addition, many things are still very confusing to me.
Yesterday I was super damn happy. I came home and finally our music room air con is repaired! and now it's freezing cold and comfortable! :), and then the piano has been tuned. NO more excess noise from the keys, and the higher registers sound v crispy! And then I could finally reap the benefits of a week's long practice all in one day. It's like delayed gratification. Last few days I couldn't improve much but yesterday I finally gain all that improvement and I was so high!
I didn't go to school today. :)
Last night I was certainly feeling very much like moonlight movement 3. Melancholic rage building up within me as I tried to make a compromise with my wavering heart, telling it to fall asleep and stop thinking. Damn Presto Agitato. The discontinuity, the rejection of the natural flowing arpeggios by two abrupt chords, seemed totally coherent with how I was feeling.
It's not really a good thing to have good memory.
I was for once, not emo, but angry. For what? I have no idea, but it was like a thirst that had to be quenched. But I woke up, looked at the sun, smiled, and everything was fine again. Reason known or not known, puzzling, puzzling. It's ain't time to fall into a bottomless pit trap again. When I just have to walk straight into the boss territories, unleash by hollow bankai and slice and dice the entire a levels into shreds. After all, I AM talented. What's stopping me.
It's a quest now, I cannot go anywhere else, no detours, and every single part of the map is sealed. I only can head up to the Elite Four (math chem phy geog! woots), and take them on. I can only indulge myself in studying till I own the elite four. Wow. Oh wow. No side quests for now, no more missions, just one. (or maybe more than one).
Bugger.
It's time to flip the switch. Ty begins studying today! ROAR! For now, it's the mediocre boss, (which is nubbish) of the mid year realms.
All that gusto and trash talk, and I'm not even in school.
I was half emo, half angry, some minute percentage of uncertainty, some percentage of opposing certainty, all that repulsion in me was unendurable.
But now, I feel okay. Maybe because I finally wrote my resolution down. Ty begins studying as of today. Ty will rise from the bottomless pit trap of slackness, unleash his shikai and bash the boss. Thou shall not use [ulti] until the final boss.
AHHHH, I'm really going spastic.
I'm seriously seriously, 20% honki mode.
Dear blog, there are tons of things I would like to talk to you about, but I don't want the whole world reading. In addition, many things are still very confusing to me.
Yesterday I was super damn happy. I came home and finally our music room air con is repaired! and now it's freezing cold and comfortable! :), and then the piano has been tuned. NO more excess noise from the keys, and the higher registers sound v crispy! And then I could finally reap the benefits of a week's long practice all in one day. It's like delayed gratification. Last few days I couldn't improve much but yesterday I finally gain all that improvement and I was so high!
I didn't go to school today. :)
Last night I was certainly feeling very much like moonlight movement 3. Melancholic rage building up within me as I tried to make a compromise with my wavering heart, telling it to fall asleep and stop thinking. Damn Presto Agitato. The discontinuity, the rejection of the natural flowing arpeggios by two abrupt chords, seemed totally coherent with how I was feeling.
It's not really a good thing to have good memory.
I was for once, not emo, but angry. For what? I have no idea, but it was like a thirst that had to be quenched. But I woke up, looked at the sun, smiled, and everything was fine again. Reason known or not known, puzzling, puzzling. It's ain't time to fall into a bottomless pit trap again. When I just have to walk straight into the boss territories, unleash by hollow bankai and slice and dice the entire a levels into shreds. After all, I AM talented. What's stopping me.
It's a quest now, I cannot go anywhere else, no detours, and every single part of the map is sealed. I only can head up to the Elite Four (math chem phy geog! woots), and take them on. I can only indulge myself in studying till I own the elite four. Wow. Oh wow. No side quests for now, no more missions, just one. (or maybe more than one).
Bugger.
It's time to flip the switch. Ty begins studying today! ROAR! For now, it's the mediocre boss, (which is nubbish) of the mid year realms.
All that gusto and trash talk, and I'm not even in school.
I was half emo, half angry, some minute percentage of uncertainty, some percentage of opposing certainty, all that repulsion in me was unendurable.
But now, I feel okay. Maybe because I finally wrote my resolution down. Ty begins studying as of today. Ty will rise from the bottomless pit trap of slackness, unleash his shikai and bash the boss. Thou shall not use [ulti] until the final boss.
AHHHH, I'm really going spastic.
I'm seriously seriously, 20% honki mode.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Desperate
I need to cheer myself up. Finding myself very suicidal nowadays. Why am I being such a hypocrite. I tell my brother, "attempt things within your reach", and I go off doing the opposite, and being so stubborn about it. How many nights have I tossed and turned thinking about how it will actually turn out to be.
Why do I feel as if I will be such a loser if I can't play that Chopin Etude. 10-4 is not an easy piece, in fact, it is spammed with technical difficulties, (to the extent that the piece can be performed as a replacement for scales in a diploma exam), extremely fast paced, requires lightning fingers, crazy leaps of all many others. Certainly not very much in my radar yet. But I am ambitious, I am insane and drunk. But wait, I don't approach it with a very healthy or happy go lucky attitude. I can go angry, frustrated and at moments, I get extremely hurt. I've halted moonlight, given up on winter wind and some others. (which are all pieces of insanity), and now what, I am going to attempt another one just to give up on it?
Where's my fighting spirit? And most importantly, why am I NOT contented.
I banged the keys, I slapped myself. I think I'm going crazy. I feel as if my whole world is collapsing, just because I missed one note on a descending arpeggio.
Why do I feel as if I will be such a loser if I can't play that Chopin Etude. 10-4 is not an easy piece, in fact, it is spammed with technical difficulties, (to the extent that the piece can be performed as a replacement for scales in a diploma exam), extremely fast paced, requires lightning fingers, crazy leaps of all many others. Certainly not very much in my radar yet. But I am ambitious, I am insane and drunk. But wait, I don't approach it with a very healthy or happy go lucky attitude. I can go angry, frustrated and at moments, I get extremely hurt. I've halted moonlight, given up on winter wind and some others. (which are all pieces of insanity), and now what, I am going to attempt another one just to give up on it?
Where's my fighting spirit? And most importantly, why am I NOT contented.
I banged the keys, I slapped myself. I think I'm going crazy. I feel as if my whole world is collapsing, just because I missed one note on a descending arpeggio.
Cleared up
All negativities in me cleared up finally. Finally, no aching muscles, soaring temperatures, leaking nose or whatsoever. Feel fresh. And guess what, tomorrow's a holiday! and Friday is GP paper which means, next week is a T-H-R-E-E day week. Overjoyed. Then it's the june holidays.
I'm craving for A LOT food now, as in, like sushi, pasta etc...and shark's fin (yum!), I think this is the typical "post illness syndrome" Ahhh, I really hope I get to eat some sushi today!
YAYYYYYE HOLIDAYS ARE (ALMOST)HERE AND it's TIME TO HAVE SOME FUN *goes nuts*
I'm hungry. *plays Hungarian rhapsody*
I run, I run more, I run more, I run more, I fall down.
I'm craving for A LOT food now, as in, like sushi, pasta etc...and shark's fin (yum!), I think this is the typical "post illness syndrome" Ahhh, I really hope I get to eat some sushi today!
YAYYYYYE HOLIDAYS ARE (ALMOST)HERE AND it's TIME TO HAVE SOME FUN *goes nuts*
I'm hungry. *plays Hungarian rhapsody*
I run, I run more, I run more, I run more, I fall down.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Emo
Still sick
well, almost.
Fever down
Gastric pain coming for not eating anything in 2 days (almost)
except medicine.
mind not working, "paragraphing.exe" file NOT found.
Being perspiring insanely and insanely.
guess it's effect of medicine (fever) and super high fever over e past few days
Perspiring removes heat from my body, so guess it's a natural defense.
I can't play the piano
I can maybe, if I play slow pieces.
Just exerting myself to play Chopin's Etude would make me perspire like crazy.
What the heck!
Feeling super frustrated.
This stupid virus is actually restricting my progress in anything.
Worst of all, if I try to strain myself in anyway, I perspire so much that it gets annoying!
The weather is burning today, which explains why I am in perma-wet state!
Damn!!
Super duper pissed.
Why can't I just practice my etude in piece without releasing so much sweat!
Then my head gets giddy.
Trust me, playing chopin's 10-4 needs more than relaxation. I wonder how much activity goes on in the head just to coordinate the fingers at such a speed. Dang.
And so I hope everything will be cleared by tml.
As you can see, "paragraphing.exe" is not filed. Corrupted file data due to "fever.exe" damn
well, almost.
Fever down
Gastric pain coming for not eating anything in 2 days (almost)
except medicine.
mind not working, "paragraphing.exe" file NOT found.
Being perspiring insanely and insanely.
guess it's effect of medicine (fever) and super high fever over e past few days
Perspiring removes heat from my body, so guess it's a natural defense.
I can't play the piano
I can maybe, if I play slow pieces.
Just exerting myself to play Chopin's Etude would make me perspire like crazy.
What the heck!
Feeling super frustrated.
This stupid virus is actually restricting my progress in anything.
Worst of all, if I try to strain myself in anyway, I perspire so much that it gets annoying!
The weather is burning today, which explains why I am in perma-wet state!
Damn!!
Super duper pissed.
Why can't I just practice my etude in piece without releasing so much sweat!
Then my head gets giddy.
Trust me, playing chopin's 10-4 needs more than relaxation. I wonder how much activity goes on in the head just to coordinate the fingers at such a speed. Dang.
And so I hope everything will be cleared by tml.
As you can see, "paragraphing.exe" is not filed. Corrupted file data due to "fever.exe" damn
Friday, May 16, 2008
Aura of fire
I'm not in very good condition right now. Basically yesterday was spent immobilized under blankets and sleeping the entire day. My fever soared to 39.8 (almost 40 degrees) and I'm not even sure it hit pass 40 degrees. I was literally emitting an aura of fire. Those people who came near me, specifically my maid and family members could feel the heat just standing 1 metre away. It was a hellish state I was in. Now as I'm typing this, subsiding fevers actually make you feel a lot better, I'm still having fever but now a mild one. (37+). To think that I haven't eaten anything from yesterday till today and I slept the entire time.
Now so this is the long weekend I wished for. A long weekend, sometimes a holiday so long that initial days have a resemblance of an eternity of a holiday. Next Monday is a holiday, which means I missed 3 days of school and have 5 consecutive no school days. Should I say woots, or otherwise. Two days spend in an internal oven, and 3 days potentially at peace. Long weekend, or should I say super long weekend.
For now I am facing the ending points of the fever curve. I had severe running nose like a leaking tap, so much that at one point I was sleeping in a sea of dirty tissues. I have clogged throat, sore throat, giddiness and weak muscles (to the point that I receive random, queer "nerve shocks" when I over exert my muscles), and be surprised or not, yesterday at 40 degrees I couldn't even open the car door.
I probably cannot leave a 1 metre radius of my mattress (except to the toilet) and any strenuous activity is out of question, taboo. Even practicing on the piano should be banned for now (playing etudes are actually very strenuous activities). I can even feel my finger muscles sometimes going weak because of my condition. Some people say straining one's brain when having an extremely high fever may cause brain damage.
So I've been relaxing, and trying to make myself comfortable. At better points (when panadol > fever symptoms), I manage to become sane enough to play games on my DS. Shoot me for being "seemingly childish", but I actually find pokemon mystery dungeon to be of certain entertainment value. Trust me, it's not that easy. I keep dying -.-||
So what to make out of the next few days will have to depend on how well I recover. Fever viruses nowadays seem more persistent. They come, they diminish and they attack you when you have thought you recovered. I fall sick relatively often and I wonder why.
I should be glad I am not immobilized anymore, neither am I bedridden and undergoing forced cuddling under my blanket. The room temperature ceases to make me shiver, and the occasional gust of wind does not impale my senses. For now, wish myself a speedy recovery.
But seriously (and honestly), I have no qualms about falling sick. Since rewards seem more prominent (to me) than it's consequences. Having a valid, legal reason to pon school seems like a good enough incentive.
Now so this is the long weekend I wished for. A long weekend, sometimes a holiday so long that initial days have a resemblance of an eternity of a holiday. Next Monday is a holiday, which means I missed 3 days of school and have 5 consecutive no school days. Should I say woots, or otherwise. Two days spend in an internal oven, and 3 days potentially at peace. Long weekend, or should I say super long weekend.
For now I am facing the ending points of the fever curve. I had severe running nose like a leaking tap, so much that at one point I was sleeping in a sea of dirty tissues. I have clogged throat, sore throat, giddiness and weak muscles (to the point that I receive random, queer "nerve shocks" when I over exert my muscles), and be surprised or not, yesterday at 40 degrees I couldn't even open the car door.
I probably cannot leave a 1 metre radius of my mattress (except to the toilet) and any strenuous activity is out of question, taboo. Even practicing on the piano should be banned for now (playing etudes are actually very strenuous activities). I can even feel my finger muscles sometimes going weak because of my condition. Some people say straining one's brain when having an extremely high fever may cause brain damage.
So I've been relaxing, and trying to make myself comfortable. At better points (when panadol > fever symptoms), I manage to become sane enough to play games on my DS. Shoot me for being "seemingly childish", but I actually find pokemon mystery dungeon to be of certain entertainment value. Trust me, it's not that easy. I keep dying -.-||
So what to make out of the next few days will have to depend on how well I recover. Fever viruses nowadays seem more persistent. They come, they diminish and they attack you when you have thought you recovered. I fall sick relatively often and I wonder why.
I should be glad I am not immobilized anymore, neither am I bedridden and undergoing forced cuddling under my blanket. The room temperature ceases to make me shiver, and the occasional gust of wind does not impale my senses. For now, wish myself a speedy recovery.
But seriously (and honestly), I have no qualms about falling sick. Since rewards seem more prominent (to me) than it's consequences. Having a valid, legal reason to pon school seems like a good enough incentive.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Fever
I'm having fever right now. 38.7 the last time I checked. I actually went to school sick! (when I could have just ponned it) anyway mainly because there was chemistry SPA skill A which I didn't want to take it on another day (get it over and done with, right?). So I assumed SPA was 8am in the morning, I went to school with the intention of doing the exam and then leaving right after that. Turns out way unexpected, SPA was 2:30 not 8 (shoots myself for not listening attentively when they announced) and so I had to attend chem, physics and assembly all with a heavy burning forehead. To those we came close to me, talked to me or whatever, I hope I don't spread any germs.
So it was one long horrible day.
(actually I have nothing to blog about)
I'm not going to school tomorrow! Still hot, burning.
Chem spa went ok. Except one blunder was that I reacted Sodium with ethanol too early in the procedure I forgot that Ammonium Salt would BOOmmm with sodium. (or at least react?). Hope they don't penalize much. Couldn't think much as I was having super high fever. I just spammed, yeah literally spammed.
Assembly, BGR and sexuality talk. Been sometime since I heard the cliche talk about the same old thing over and over again. Thinking through, it feels more and more like constant brainwashing (throughout the years) to me. it's like some universal scheme to make people assume things. Generalization was rampant (and disturbing). The entertainment value of the talk was there (mainly due to the sarbo-ing of people). The speakers seemed substandard to me and the content was just another average BGR talk. Seriously, can such complicated matters be generalized? I am inclined to believe otherwise.
Then they played an emo song in the end. And ask people to try to imagine yourself breaking up (or something along those lines). I could understand the feeling pretty much very well, but I just couldn't get emo. For the fact that I am immune to loneliness (for now?), am pretty much very occupied with my lofty goals that I cannot really think about anything to do with relationships. or is it that finally girls cease to amuse me. Perhaps. (for now?).
So that was very inflammable? Or not.
I don't know. Anyway I find myself unable to do anything now. My fingers are numb and so are my every limb connected to my body. I find it totally hard to concentrate, entirely restless. Engulfed in fever, I cannot do anything but stare and stone.
Panadol is working very well such that the effects of fever has diminished. (at least I don't feel that feverish now), but still, when I try to do something even fairly strenuous, I get tossed back into square one of immobility.
Now now. Let's just say I should dive into my bed.
And school sick bay rocks!
So it was one long horrible day.
(actually I have nothing to blog about)
I'm not going to school tomorrow! Still hot, burning.
Chem spa went ok. Except one blunder was that I reacted Sodium with ethanol too early in the procedure I forgot that Ammonium Salt would BOOmmm with sodium. (or at least react?). Hope they don't penalize much. Couldn't think much as I was having super high fever. I just spammed, yeah literally spammed.
Assembly, BGR and sexuality talk. Been sometime since I heard the cliche talk about the same old thing over and over again. Thinking through, it feels more and more like constant brainwashing (throughout the years) to me. it's like some universal scheme to make people assume things. Generalization was rampant (and disturbing). The entertainment value of the talk was there (mainly due to the sarbo-ing of people). The speakers seemed substandard to me and the content was just another average BGR talk. Seriously, can such complicated matters be generalized? I am inclined to believe otherwise.
Then they played an emo song in the end. And ask people to try to imagine yourself breaking up (or something along those lines). I could understand the feeling pretty much very well, but I just couldn't get emo. For the fact that I am immune to loneliness (for now?), am pretty much very occupied with my lofty goals that I cannot really think about anything to do with relationships. or is it that finally girls cease to amuse me. Perhaps. (for now?).
So that was very inflammable? Or not.
I don't know. Anyway I find myself unable to do anything now. My fingers are numb and so are my every limb connected to my body. I find it totally hard to concentrate, entirely restless. Engulfed in fever, I cannot do anything but stare and stone.
Panadol is working very well such that the effects of fever has diminished. (at least I don't feel that feverish now), but still, when I try to do something even fairly strenuous, I get tossed back into square one of immobility.
Now now. Let's just say I should dive into my bed.
And school sick bay rocks!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Tired in a way
Grats, I'm tired. Trying to blog very nonchalantly. I believe people do actually not like reading my blogs because of the very often wall of text.
Funny moment/s in school today. We had geography consultation, me and Jlam and we were both like big nubcakes because we didn't even prepare for the consultation. Then I cannot find my paper because it is being sandwiched between a term worth of notes. Can't find my pen because it's buried beneath those notes. I had to borrow paper, notes, pen from Jlam. Well, that's me, if you're not used to it already.
Then after consultation Jlam and me wanted to go play the piano at the hall, and strangely enough when we opened the door to the hall (or what is it called? barricades?), we saw Mr Wong Ah See in sports attire playing badminton!!!! I was too astonished and instinctively I laughed and remarked, " Wah mr wong play badminton ah". Then he was like " cannot ah, you think only you can play badminton ah". It was quite a stupid experience because I think my tone was slightly sarcastic, (but of course, unintentional sarcasm!), it was too spontaneous!
Then I left for home. I realized I have a cough, or maybe something feels weird in my throat, (feels like minor constipation in my throat). I'm tired. And I'm perspiring for no reason actually. I skipped chem lecture today!! heh
I'm tired!
Tired, tired tired.
Digressing...
Some random quotes (music related)
1) #1 worldwide major cause of introvert behavior : Chopin Etudes
2) People suggests that Sorabji is gay because he composes things so HARD and LONG
(Sorabji is an renowned composer for his difficult compositions)
3) The stuff you grab as you ride your bicycle or open the door is named after a famous composer by the name of Handel.
4) Beethoven could cook anytime cause he had an oven in his name. ( no one knew it if it was microwave)
That's all for now.
Funny moment/s in school today. We had geography consultation, me and Jlam and we were both like big nubcakes because we didn't even prepare for the consultation. Then I cannot find my paper because it is being sandwiched between a term worth of notes. Can't find my pen because it's buried beneath those notes. I had to borrow paper, notes, pen from Jlam. Well, that's me, if you're not used to it already.
Then after consultation Jlam and me wanted to go play the piano at the hall, and strangely enough when we opened the door to the hall (or what is it called? barricades?), we saw Mr Wong Ah See in sports attire playing badminton!!!! I was too astonished and instinctively I laughed and remarked, " Wah mr wong play badminton ah". Then he was like " cannot ah, you think only you can play badminton ah". It was quite a stupid experience because I think my tone was slightly sarcastic, (but of course, unintentional sarcasm!), it was too spontaneous!
Then I left for home. I realized I have a cough, or maybe something feels weird in my throat, (feels like minor constipation in my throat). I'm tired. And I'm perspiring for no reason actually. I skipped chem lecture today!! heh
I'm tired!
Tired, tired tired.
Digressing...
Some random quotes (music related)
1) #1 worldwide major cause of introvert behavior : Chopin Etudes
2) People suggests that Sorabji is gay because he composes things so HARD and LONG
(Sorabji is an renowned composer for his difficult compositions)
3) The stuff you grab as you ride your bicycle or open the door is named after a famous composer by the name of Handel.
4) Beethoven could cook anytime cause he had an oven in his name. ( no one knew it if it was microwave)
That's all for now.
Monday, May 12, 2008
A night so long
So I finally managed to fall asleep at 5am last night. And that was when I decided I'm NOT going to school at 7am the next morning (wait, that's just 2 hours of miserable sleep), I'll probably fall asleep while walking to school. So I slept in, under my fluffy blankets and pillows. Ahh, sleep is good good.
I left my com around 2Am. I did all sorts of random stuff at night, at one point I was even considering putting toothpaste on my brother/dad's face but I thought I shouldn't try and get rid of my boredom at the expense of other's sleep. (but i have to admit it was severely tempting). I did push ups up, stared at the mirror for 15 minutes, roll on the floor (again), stone at the sky. Then at one point of time, my energy was diminishing so I settled down. Less energy, but still not enough to fall asleep yet. I lay, look out at the window and into the balcony (I sleep by the balcony) and I was trying to find stars (!!), but to no avail. At most there was only ONE star. That totally made the irresistible urge to sing twinkle twinkle little star slightly more resistible. (I didn't sing in the end).
When all attempts were ineffectual, I finally decided to sit in one corner and emo. Tuning in into my ipod, I selected all the emo love songs I have (and finally once in a long time, listened to a pop song!). I tried to get emo, but almost to no avail. I tried again. I won't be emo. (proves that I've become severely unemotional) and so after about 15 minutes of listening to songs and staring out at the window I finally manage to reach a stage where you feel conditioned to be emo. And so I was slightly emo. By that time, it was nearing 5am, and that was when emo thoughts finally put me to sleep.
What a night! It seemed like an eternity waiting for my energy levels to diminish to a point I can fall asleep.
And so I had half day school. I appeared because I figured Mr wong would really find trouble with me for ponning so many times of school (I try to keep my ponning days nonconsecutive). So I appeared, for say one chemistry class, one geography lecture and one PE lesson. (which was effectively half the day).
I have to say that geography lecture wasn't much of a lecture for me. Me and both Jonathan were playing the "find as many words as you can from a relatively longer word"-game, and I keep getting thrashed over and over again, (though I managed to find some unique words that both of them couldn't find), I was overwhelmed, then overwhelmed again, and then again, and again. Till I finally have to admit I have no talent for spotting words inside a word. That's just proves one point, I ain't very detailed. I am non flexible.
And I just realized my tag board is EMPTY.
I left my com around 2Am. I did all sorts of random stuff at night, at one point I was even considering putting toothpaste on my brother/dad's face but I thought I shouldn't try and get rid of my boredom at the expense of other's sleep. (but i have to admit it was severely tempting). I did push ups up, stared at the mirror for 15 minutes, roll on the floor (again), stone at the sky. Then at one point of time, my energy was diminishing so I settled down. Less energy, but still not enough to fall asleep yet. I lay, look out at the window and into the balcony (I sleep by the balcony) and I was trying to find stars (!!), but to no avail. At most there was only ONE star. That totally made the irresistible urge to sing twinkle twinkle little star slightly more resistible. (I didn't sing in the end).
When all attempts were ineffectual, I finally decided to sit in one corner and emo. Tuning in into my ipod, I selected all the emo love songs I have (and finally once in a long time, listened to a pop song!). I tried to get emo, but almost to no avail. I tried again. I won't be emo. (proves that I've become severely unemotional) and so after about 15 minutes of listening to songs and staring out at the window I finally manage to reach a stage where you feel conditioned to be emo. And so I was slightly emo. By that time, it was nearing 5am, and that was when emo thoughts finally put me to sleep.
What a night! It seemed like an eternity waiting for my energy levels to diminish to a point I can fall asleep.
And so I had half day school. I appeared because I figured Mr wong would really find trouble with me for ponning so many times of school (I try to keep my ponning days nonconsecutive). So I appeared, for say one chemistry class, one geography lecture and one PE lesson. (which was effectively half the day).
I have to say that geography lecture wasn't much of a lecture for me. Me and both Jonathan were playing the "find as many words as you can from a relatively longer word"-game, and I keep getting thrashed over and over again, (though I managed to find some unique words that both of them couldn't find), I was overwhelmed, then overwhelmed again, and then again, and again. Till I finally have to admit I have no talent for spotting words inside a word. That's just proves one point, I ain't very detailed. I am non flexible.
And I just realized my tag board is EMPTY.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I should be sleeping
But I am not. Though I am a sleep-a-holic, it is so rare that I find the gates of dreamworld locked. I should hang around on the net for say an hour plus more before I attempt to get in. Reads, server busy. Maybe too many people are sleeping right now. I can't sleep!
Just returned home from this 'mother's day dinner' thing organized by church. It was a reach out session and I drank too much chinese tea. Is it a proven scientific fact or an old folk's tale that chinese tea does actually contain chemicals that promotes energy levels? (or is it identical to caffeine or what?). I drank really in excess, about 8-10 glasses because I was bored waiting for food, had nothing to keep myself busy with an I went to the toilet at intervals of say, 15 minutes.
Consequences, consequences. Now I can't sleep!
Ty still finds Stravinsky's Petrouchka extremely appealing!
Two more weeks to the long break (1 month!!!!), endure endure.
And somehow it just sucks because tomorrow is Monday and I end at 5.
Just returned home from this 'mother's day dinner' thing organized by church. It was a reach out session and I drank too much chinese tea. Is it a proven scientific fact or an old folk's tale that chinese tea does actually contain chemicals that promotes energy levels? (or is it identical to caffeine or what?). I drank really in excess, about 8-10 glasses because I was bored waiting for food, had nothing to keep myself busy with an I went to the toilet at intervals of say, 15 minutes.
Consequences, consequences. Now I can't sleep!
Ty still finds Stravinsky's Petrouchka extremely appealing!
Two more weeks to the long break (1 month!!!!), endure endure.
And somehow it just sucks because tomorrow is Monday and I end at 5.
Midnight Boredom
I was at the peak of exhaustion about two hours ago. I went rambling at my etude till I always almost playing with my eyes close and brain dead. (Yes, I am dead serious), I was too tired that I called it quits before 11:30. I climbed up almost as if dragging my own dead body, and staggered. Upon entering a room and my mattress sensors blinking rapidly, I immediately collapsed. That was my brother's mattress. And hopeless me didn't have any energy to get up from it.
But I was forced to. Reluctantly, I dragged myself to the other end of the room into MY mattress. I sank my face into the pillow and blankets, and tried to sleep.
Trust me you will never imagine how it feels like to be too tired to even sleep.
I think my body clock/or fatigue-level systems are WAY too screwed that I can rest for 5 minutes to heal a seemingly "life threatening sleep inducing fatigue causing zombie virus" and so, I am WIDE awake, alive and kicking, BORED to death, without a single person to accompany me (except my blog), till I finally get some reminiscence of how it feels like to be sleepy.
Actually for some reason, having a new blogskin makes me feel like posting more. I have been surfing forums, reading more forums, some articles here and there, blog hopping, doing push ups, rolling on the floor (I wasn't laughing by the way), trying to sleep, in the past 1 hour or so. My brother is unfortunately too tired to engaged in a midnight chat with me (unlike Friday night). Self entertainment is a very valuable skill indeed. I have a few more resorts (not really last, but yeah, something like last resorts), but I'll keep them up my sleeves for now.
Feeling spastic and high at midnight, without really anything to do (with all the things you are so used to doing being unaccessible at this point of time especially) is something not necessarily good. Consequences are definitely inevitable. It makes me post in a very high manner (or maybe offend people unknowingly) and then the next day I reread my own post and laugh at my stupidity (oh wait, that never happened). It feels as though I am semi-drunk, but not exactly drunk but more of "unsober". (sorry spelling check) . Secondly, I will find myself waking up with the blazing sun perpendicular to the floor. Noon, sometimes I like waking up feeling so refreshed at the excess of sleep. Seeing how things are going right now, I will hit dreamland at about 2-3am. Not very good for health.
On a highly serious note, holidays are coming indeed. 2 more weeks to one month of freedom. And on top of that there's a big treat-the mid year exams right after holidays. I am by no means injecting any flavor of sarcasm into the previous statement. Exams aren't stressful first of all, they are just routine, and the best part is they give lots and lots of bonus holidays after getting down with the entire ritual. (marking day and days without papers). Super looking forward to june holidays plus mid year exams.
I've been looking around at other people's blogs, and I realize I do post A LOT. For an introvert, I sure have lots to say huh. Especially when I don't normally post routine events anymore.
As you can see, blogging to me is just like talking to myself. It's so dumb that I am so bored that I have to resort to talking to myself. My system wouldn't shut down right now.
But I was forced to. Reluctantly, I dragged myself to the other end of the room into MY mattress. I sank my face into the pillow and blankets, and tried to sleep.
Trust me you will never imagine how it feels like to be too tired to even sleep.
I think my body clock/or fatigue-level systems are WAY too screwed that I can rest for 5 minutes to heal a seemingly "life threatening sleep inducing fatigue causing zombie virus" and so, I am WIDE awake, alive and kicking, BORED to death, without a single person to accompany me (except my blog), till I finally get some reminiscence of how it feels like to be sleepy.
Actually for some reason, having a new blogskin makes me feel like posting more. I have been surfing forums, reading more forums, some articles here and there, blog hopping, doing push ups, rolling on the floor (I wasn't laughing by the way), trying to sleep, in the past 1 hour or so. My brother is unfortunately too tired to engaged in a midnight chat with me (unlike Friday night). Self entertainment is a very valuable skill indeed. I have a few more resorts (not really last, but yeah, something like last resorts), but I'll keep them up my sleeves for now.
Feeling spastic and high at midnight, without really anything to do (with all the things you are so used to doing being unaccessible at this point of time especially) is something not necessarily good. Consequences are definitely inevitable. It makes me post in a very high manner (or maybe offend people unknowingly) and then the next day I reread my own post and laugh at my stupidity (oh wait, that never happened). It feels as though I am semi-drunk, but not exactly drunk but more of "unsober". (sorry spelling check) . Secondly, I will find myself waking up with the blazing sun perpendicular to the floor. Noon, sometimes I like waking up feeling so refreshed at the excess of sleep. Seeing how things are going right now, I will hit dreamland at about 2-3am. Not very good for health.
On a highly serious note, holidays are coming indeed. 2 more weeks to one month of freedom. And on top of that there's a big treat-the mid year exams right after holidays. I am by no means injecting any flavor of sarcasm into the previous statement. Exams aren't stressful first of all, they are just routine, and the best part is they give lots and lots of bonus holidays after getting down with the entire ritual. (marking day and days without papers). Super looking forward to june holidays plus mid year exams.
I've been looking around at other people's blogs, and I realize I do post A LOT. For an introvert, I sure have lots to say huh. Especially when I don't normally post routine events anymore.
As you can see, blogging to me is just like talking to myself. It's so dumb that I am so bored that I have to resort to talking to myself. My system wouldn't shut down right now.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Unlocked
Unlocked my blog, opened to public again. But be warned, any attempt at harassment (of stupid, provocative, morally incorrect, mocking, or just retarded comments) will result in locking of my blog again. I do strive to make my blog 100% intellectual, and for the intellectual, and that includes my tag board.
So layout has changed, just did it in about 1 hour plus just now. Had this urge to play with adobe photoshop, it was fun. Html was again, cranky. I still cannot solve the problem with some layer values (I use div layers) which cause my tables to look different in firefox or IE, one way or another, one can be perfect at the expense of the other looking retarded. I've chosen firefox, and please do not hurt your eyes viewing my blog with Internet explorer. You will find the left column jutting out, extremely irritating if you're the type who can't stand a piece of crap paper lying on the floor (//end analogy)
Don't wish to elaborate on my layout, the theme stuff.
Anyway the last few days have been humdrum. rather tiring, because I have been trying to balance many issues at one go sometimes resulting in me going to bed totally worn out. I find myself a little more socially revived this few days, (which is good, and bad). I sacrificed a little piano progress to do a lot more stuff. Well, I guess, my life is kind of returning to normal.
I didn't go to school on Friday. I have given on following the school's schedule of academic success. Follow the lectures, do your tutorials and you'll pass with flying colors? Maybe. But I find myself unable to cope with the system. Not the brainy part, but the staying awake in lectures and doing tutorials with datelines. If I want to study, I'll have to do everything myself.
I keep thinking tomorrow is Monday. Ugh
Life has been fine. Awkward moments, indecisive moments, moments of disappointment, inspiration and a spectrum of different emotions, pertaining to different issues all together, I think Ive experienced widely in the past few days. However, all these emotions have dissolved in fatigue, I cannot find a satisfactory resolution except to sweep matters under the bed till I regain some energy.
But some matters are resolved.
For good. :)
So layout has changed, just did it in about 1 hour plus just now. Had this urge to play with adobe photoshop, it was fun. Html was again, cranky. I still cannot solve the problem with some layer values (I use div layers) which cause my tables to look different in firefox or IE, one way or another, one can be perfect at the expense of the other looking retarded. I've chosen firefox, and please do not hurt your eyes viewing my blog with Internet explorer. You will find the left column jutting out, extremely irritating if you're the type who can't stand a piece of crap paper lying on the floor (//end analogy)
Don't wish to elaborate on my layout, the theme stuff.
Anyway the last few days have been humdrum. rather tiring, because I have been trying to balance many issues at one go sometimes resulting in me going to bed totally worn out. I find myself a little more socially revived this few days, (which is good, and bad). I sacrificed a little piano progress to do a lot more stuff. Well, I guess, my life is kind of returning to normal.
I didn't go to school on Friday. I have given on following the school's schedule of academic success. Follow the lectures, do your tutorials and you'll pass with flying colors? Maybe. But I find myself unable to cope with the system. Not the brainy part, but the staying awake in lectures and doing tutorials with datelines. If I want to study, I'll have to do everything myself.
I keep thinking tomorrow is Monday. Ugh
Life has been fine. Awkward moments, indecisive moments, moments of disappointment, inspiration and a spectrum of different emotions, pertaining to different issues all together, I think Ive experienced widely in the past few days. However, all these emotions have dissolved in fatigue, I cannot find a satisfactory resolution except to sweep matters under the bed till I regain some energy.
But some matters are resolved.
For good. :)
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
No post?
Bleh. Been updating my other blog. (not giving url) for now. But it's kinda lame. Some people know it, but I believe 99% of the population won't be interested in what I'm posting there. Life starting not to be able to live up to it's name (thus, lifeless), wow, triple pun. (or maybe a pun in a pun, but never mind.
School hasn't been very satisfactory lately. not even doing the bare minimum to get by. Exams are coming. Yes, I need the pressure to finally be able to get down and do something. Attempt to sign out failed as mr wong saw through my plot last friday (Did I post about it). I believe teachers are probably going to get annoyed because I get rock bottom grades in recent tests. It's now not the time to decide what to study, is to decide what kind of grades do I want to get in mid years and how much effort do I intend to get that. Let's say my previous goal (the last time I set) was all Cs for all the S-es. Seeing the way things are going, I might have to change that to all Es. but again aiming for all Es will result in an array of S-es again, which is back to square common test. Ding dong. Retard. I'm feeling so spastic now that it's disturbing.
Well, school aside. Term 2 is coming to an end. Wee, june holidays up and coming. However, SPA plagues next week and we have Skill A Chem mock Spa tomorrow. Yucks, I don't wanna study.
Please understand how the way I'm blogging is disturbingly halfhearted, heck care nonchalent retard and bullshitting because I just posted in my other blog.
And so, I hope in regaining some of my social life. *shivers* in fear I may become a robot soon. And a robot not useful in anyway except having fast fingers.
School hasn't been very satisfactory lately. not even doing the bare minimum to get by. Exams are coming. Yes, I need the pressure to finally be able to get down and do something. Attempt to sign out failed as mr wong saw through my plot last friday (Did I post about it). I believe teachers are probably going to get annoyed because I get rock bottom grades in recent tests. It's now not the time to decide what to study, is to decide what kind of grades do I want to get in mid years and how much effort do I intend to get that. Let's say my previous goal (the last time I set) was all Cs for all the S-es. Seeing the way things are going, I might have to change that to all Es. but again aiming for all Es will result in an array of S-es again, which is back to square common test. Ding dong. Retard. I'm feeling so spastic now that it's disturbing.
Well, school aside. Term 2 is coming to an end. Wee, june holidays up and coming. However, SPA plagues next week and we have Skill A Chem mock Spa tomorrow. Yucks, I don't wanna study.
Please understand how the way I'm blogging is disturbingly halfhearted, heck care nonchalent retard and bullshitting because I just posted in my other blog.
And so, I hope in regaining some of my social life. *shivers* in fear I may become a robot soon. And a robot not useful in anyway except having fast fingers.
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