Midnight Boredom

I was at the peak of exhaustion about two hours ago. I went rambling at my etude till I always almost playing with my eyes close and brain dead. (Yes, I am dead serious), I was too tired that I called it quits before 11:30. I climbed up almost as if dragging my own dead body, and staggered. Upon entering a room and my mattress sensors blinking rapidly, I immediately collapsed. That was my brother's mattress. And hopeless me didn't have any energy to get up from it.

But I was forced to. Reluctantly, I dragged myself to the other end of the room into MY mattress. I sank my face into the pillow and blankets, and tried to sleep.

Trust me you will never imagine how it feels like to be too tired to even sleep.

I think my body clock/or fatigue-level systems are WAY too screwed that I can rest for 5 minutes to heal a seemingly "life threatening sleep inducing fatigue causing zombie virus" and so, I am WIDE awake, alive and kicking, BORED to death, without a single person to accompany me (except my blog), till I finally get some reminiscence of how it feels like to be sleepy.

Actually for some reason, having a new blogskin makes me feel like posting more. I have been surfing forums, reading more forums, some articles here and there, blog hopping, doing push ups, rolling on the floor (I wasn't laughing by the way), trying to sleep, in the past 1 hour or so. My brother is unfortunately too tired to engaged in a midnight chat with me (unlike Friday night). Self entertainment is a very valuable skill indeed. I have a few more resorts (not really last, but yeah, something like last resorts), but I'll keep them up my sleeves for now.

Feeling spastic and high at midnight, without really anything to do (with all the things you are so used to doing being unaccessible at this point of time especially) is something not necessarily good. Consequences are definitely inevitable. It makes me post in a very high manner (or maybe offend people unknowingly) and then the next day I reread my own post and laugh at my stupidity (oh wait, that never happened). It feels as though I am semi-drunk, but not exactly drunk but more of "unsober". (sorry spelling check) . Secondly, I will find myself waking up with the blazing sun perpendicular to the floor. Noon, sometimes I like waking up feeling so refreshed at the excess of sleep. Seeing how things are going right now, I will hit dreamland at about 2-3am. Not very good for health.

On a highly serious note, holidays are coming indeed. 2 more weeks to one month of freedom. And on top of that there's a big treat-the mid year exams right after holidays. I am by no means injecting any flavor of sarcasm into the previous statement. Exams aren't stressful first of all, they are just routine, and the best part is they give lots and lots of bonus holidays after getting down with the entire ritual. (marking day and days without papers). Super looking forward to june holidays plus mid year exams.

I've been looking around at other people's blogs, and I realize I do post A LOT. For an introvert, I sure have lots to say huh. Especially when I don't normally post routine events anymore.

As you can see, blogging to me is just like talking to myself. It's so dumb that I am so bored that I have to resort to talking to myself. My system wouldn't shut down right now.