Holidays are ALMOST here

Almost, almost. One month of juicy holidays right at my door step. Unofficially, holidays begin today. Tomorrow is just GP paper, which is the super easiest paper of all (the, no need to do anything paper), and then there's geog remedial after that but I think I'm ponning geog. Whoohoo! Friday! weekend! then bang boom holiday! I'm feeling so high now, but according to people, not much of a holiday too.

Yesterday I was reading Quantum and then today I realize quantum is only in MCQ for midyears (dang!). What a waste of my time, and I actually was studying something! congrats! And right now I'm brimming with energy but I refuse to do any work, because the holiday mood is engulfing me. Ahhh, help I'm sinking in a really "holidayeesque" mood.

Then now I remember geog paper is like next friday and I haven't studied nuts, everything is in a mess right now, I know almost nuts about rivers and cracks on the floor, NOO!!!!!! For the fact that my notes are not even in place. (I'm starting to wonder if I really have them).

Okay, it's just mid years. I can get through studying minimally. Remember, I can do little work and accomplish more than what I put in. It's called efficiency. C'mon, let's prove maths wasn't a fluke. (still convinced it was). And as usual, I still believe I have no aptitude at science, and it's hard to be born with it, let's just accept that I am not talented in anything to do with science (especially physics).

And I didn't realize. It's ALREADY dark! (not chickens!) I turn around and look at the window, and one moment ago it was still evening. And I should be getting dinner soon.

I don't really know what to blog about. Confusion days, rage, nostalgia, many "I don't know" emotions flooding, and my poor wavering heart. All I can do, is to go mad like a machine on the clavier, I guess I'm still enjoying every moment of it. Academically, I can only do this much till my heart gains (or regains), a certain level of panic, to be able to function properly on those notes. (no pun intended, indirectly, and actually a very complex, multi-link pun).

And come to think of it, when was the last night when I sat down, watched the mindless lifeless television and let my mind wander into nothingness. How long has it been since I took a midnight stroll into the neighborhood, and let myself indulge in the loneliness of the night. Life's been busy, very busy. So many stuff, the clavier, school stuff (though I hardly do anything, but still, being in school takes up a huge chunk of my time!). Many people do think I relax all the way, the fact is I don't.

After posting a very nonsensical post. (which I am inclined to believe that my sentence structure was fundamentally spastic, and nonsensical), back to the clavier till I get some motivation to get from type A notes to the type B notes.

Maybe dinner first. Yum