Summary of ideas

So in the previous post one will get to know what kind of inimical grades I got today. Hostile ones, especially geog came as a rude shock. The only satisfactory grade I got is GP. Though I am happy with my H2 pass, but I still think the school needs to rethink and look into their current purblind promotion criteria. Winks, especially that H1 content subject crap. Seriously, till today, I wonder if GP is a promotion criteria. And to tell you the truth, I was worried slightly that I would fail GP, just because AQ, in my perspective, is something I will never grasp. But thankfully, I got some marks there. And thankfully once again, that GP was gave out last so I got home happy. And someone had to make me feel SAD. Wong wen pu, 81 for GP is really really insane. (but seriously one's curiousity will be inevitably inclined to probe into the probability of mendacious elements of that noble declaration).

7th november, will be another fateful day. Those on the same boat, on a better boat, or on a worst one, (or any boat that is on unstable waves), that day will comfirm our status. and no matter what it will be, what will the outcome, I will remain intrepid.

Well, the atmosphere in school (like I said), was unsettling, emo. And Jlam, you seriously could make use of the opportunity to play the EMO school song. You wasted it, that was that CHANCE u got. But heck, it's over already. Maybe 7th november will be a good opportunity.

I would gladly promote, but I would too, gladly retain. Both have their pros and cons. Seriously, many people are generally negative about it. But I don't see anything too bad about it. One more year, more time and stuff. though people always argue you're wasting time. But I always see it as a plot and a nicer excuse to avoid 'losing face'. Well throwing face is part of it, but it's only the immature people who will scoff retainees. On a more serious note, retaining could be a sensible tactic. Or is it wiser to clamber our ways through next year. And everyone knows we need more than a languid determination to get us through next year....(if next year comes...)

Though today's results managed to palliate the anxiety in me. It hurts to know that my grades right now are inadequate for a comfortable promotion. (damn GEOG). But still, I know of people worst, I know of people similar. I shouldn't be complaining.

I was put into a state of emo after getting geog grades (it was first paper given out),because I had confidence in it. But it turned out everything I wrote didn't give me my marks and everything I wrote (or studied last minute) was in complete vain. Well it tells me something. I shouldn't be overconfident just because I never failed a single geog test. If I had such confidence in geog, (even though I did lack preperation, and I never studied for any of my test...)...., then what about my other papers which I have a lesser confidence and faith in. Unsettling. I for several moments figured that I could fail every single subject at a U grade.

But thankfully things didn't turn out that way. I never considered failing geog as one of the "possible bad scenerios" that could happen. I only imagined failing one of the Math or Chem which I am relying on. But I did not.

So 7th Nov marks my fate. Either way, it will be a pyrrhic victory. (I am serious, either way). Both are victories at an excessive cost. Great benefits with great sacrifice. If both ways are equally tempting, both ways are equally beneficial, what is there to worry about? Let the school decide my fate. That is if the school does not have to boot. But trust me, I have alternatives.

The crux of the problem is that there is no way to strike a balance. Two ways, extreme in their own natures. Yet both yielding positive and negative consequences. Which path will unfold?