Home alone

Bear in mind that I have no content up there sitting on my brain when I created this post with the intention to blog, so the content may become emo.

In probably < month's time my blog will hit 400 posts, which is double of my other blogs. I know it's not really an achievement (because if it was, I would have spammed thousands of short postes to achieve a high post count? Nah, im not too lame to do that)...A blog is a commitment, and also a place for rantings, and a place to organise our own thoughts. and also, maybe. pttf, to flame others?

There's one blog I want to read, but I will never find the courage. I will never. Stupid me.

Almost a month have passed. Are things getting better? Are things worst off. I don't know. It's better, I guess. Very much better. Ive been dreaming weird dreams. One of them involving me going on a space trip and in this gigantic spacecraft. (which had classrooms in it!), and then we had to use our GC (graphic calculator) to type SMSes to our fellow people on Earth. The dream was vague, but I remembered the GC part and I woke up feeling very WTH! Seriously, I think some coil of wires in my brain are entangled, resulting in such weird dreams. I don't remember the others. some involving promo results but I guess like almost everyone has dreamt about their promo results once in awhile....

Memories, feel so surreal. They feel like a dream now.

I guess I will never be able to cherish those memories. I mean, everything happened so suddenly (though we were sitting duck all along). But eventually, there will be nothing but a scar. A scar is a irremovable reminder of an accident, a mistake or whatsoever.

Given up alot of things. Especially Yf, I use to enjoy going every week. Nowadays, Fridays feel so empty. I hate friday evenings now. As I stay at home and wait for my brother to come home, I have this longing feeling to go back, But it will make things worst. For now, there is someone I must not see...Hearing Glen n my brother talk about what happened yesterday on a Saturday really really makes me wonder ' am i ever going to go back'. well, i think many peeps have already seen me in 7:30 service, i think people must be shocked. and some already knows the story. but well...sometimes i wonder, why am i the one compromising now, why am i the one who is avoiding. why do i sacrifice my friends there so that you can go back? just to make it not so weird for you, I don't go. It's so dumb, right? Where's my pride.

As you can see, my blog title is onehundredpercent EVASION, i evade things. Running away from problems you can't SOLVE is the best alternative.All that crap talk about the cowardice nature of escapist are really untrue. If a Lion just released from the Zoo is chasing you, do you run away? I mean, (if you know you can really RUN away from it, IF not think of some other witty way to dispose of it, maybe Pokeballs?). Well....the bottom line is, Im running away, but so what? There's an option RUN in every RPG game and knowing when to RUN is wisdom.

Pride and ego, I think I have thrown them away. I should throw them away. The easiest way to live is not bear any burden. Don't hate anyone. Don't have a stuckup ego, and I find that alot easier. and most importantly, don't look down on people. dont' evaluate people, don't judge, don't gossip. That is the easiest way to live, and also probably in the name of pragmatism, people should really do the above. It makes life alot simple. And most importantly, forgive.

“Simplicity is the highest goal, achievable when you have overcome all difficulties.”Chopin.

I like the idea of simplicity being the highest degree of abstractness. (if there is such a word...ptf)

I wanted to end on a high note, but rather not. It's abit of anticlimax but the thick trees have sprouted and its time for me...

to go on some rampage in Dota.

Sounds lame, but in simpler and more logical terms. Jlam is here and Im dotaing with him.

Perfect anticlimax.