Nice!

Nice! Math was not a drowning sensation. It was like being skinned alive.

So basically the paper went like this. I looked at the first question, and then I get stunned. Then on to the second, and it was some maclaurin series. Oh wait, it actually looked like binomial theorem to me. So I went on this viscous never ending spree of "don't know-skip". Then I turned to the next page. Woah! Vectors and complex numbers and it was my favourite-argand diagrams!! Before I could rejoice, I realized I could only do 2 marks out of that damn 8 marks. Congrats?

Then right below complex which was supposed to be my food was vectors. I didn't study vectors since the last paper and remember, I was whining about how little vectors came out. Now they grant me my wish, allocating a heavy 14 marks to vectors on planes and I freaking got stuck at like the first-second part! So you could say at probably the one hour mark I haven't even secured myself any marks yet.

I flipped to statistics. I got stuck at the first probability question. I could do permutations but I am quite sure 99.5% of the time I would get them wrong due to some missing factor in the final sum which I had forgotten to consider. Finally, I found quite a bit of comfort in the probability tree question which was like the first 3 marks I gained in this 100 mark paper. I continued on, and the distribution questions were do-able. I didn't feel as if I was being owned, but neither was I owning the question. I struggled at some bits and then finally left my statistics segment alone with like 9 marks blank. (don't know how to do). Finally, I reverted my attention to pure maths section and finally managed to attempt to crap through as much as I can. However, for vectors and complex numbers, to no avail.

I feel totally owned. rather pissed. even in complex numbers and vectors, and the seemingly easy maclaurin series, they refuse to give us free marks. Without free marks, everything becomes unstable, including my mental state during the paper. At the 1 hour mark I knew I was doomed. I was trying to salvage an S grade so that I might pass overall if I get lucky with paper 1. I think Math is doomed for U. Seriously. It's now up to how high a U I would get. I still can't believe they cheat our feelings with common test making us thing that Math is so easy peasy. Raise us up so high and plummet us all the way down with mid years. I probably WILL hit rock bottom this time.

Being skinned alive in a mathematics paper. It is condign punishment for a slacker like me. I realize I cannot just read the notes several days before, memorize the formulas, skimp through the concept and score in examinations. The questions expects us to have a thousand years of experience!

//end rant

Oh and yes. Tomorrow is finally my last paper(s). Physics P1 and P2. I don't really wish to study for it. Seriously, morale is low. Mid years is doomed. I'm just going to rot away. Not that I have given up, but I just feel totally unwilling to budge.

I've been playing the piano since I came back around 1200 hrs this afternoon.

And finally, tomorrow is a pseudo-holiday. I can start planning post examination activities which will commence at 1100 hrs tomorrow. But what shall I do, I have almost no idea.

I think perhaps after several day of break after this mid years. Results will probably be back to haunt (can't avoid that). then "emo effect" will induce the willingness to mug in most of us. I don't know, perhaps I should try to be adequately prepared beforehand for A levels, (lest I screw up). Seriously, I'm having second thoughts about using last minute work. Perhaps, this is point where slacking and doing well don't go well together anymore.

Maybe I should get a tuition teacher. Someone experienced who can spoon feed me information. I can leave all my doubts to this awesome magic teacher so that I will never have to dig for my fossilized notes. In addition, there will also be audio narration to my notes, and that will be super cool!

Whatever.