The curse of the Horseshoe Magnet

After all my grades might be a u-tube after all. Now now, what went wrong? This is deserving punishment for slacking the entire half year in school, having done zero tutorials On average, I don't go to school once every week. Which translates to about 80% of the time I'm in school. And I attend 50% of all lectures. And if I attend a lecture, there is 90% chance I sleep in it. Thus, the chance of even getting anything in my head is a miserable, 4%. Which can translate into "I learn 4% of what a normal person does."

I tried to catch up this holiday. Well, one whole month seemed very sufficient, and I was so full of myself. (I didn't realize effectively I had only 3 days/subject minus slacking time) Don't study and pass everything, that was my motto. But it seems it's possible if I actually did my tutorials. Now it's mid years, several more months is finally A'levels, and I find myself inadequately equipped. Sadly, I am not the sort who will break down, neither will I crumble to pressure. I just get back up, smiling. Of course, that's reserved for after I get straight A's in A levels. Let's just say, I finally realized there's perhaps no shortcut. I spent one and a half year thinking and devising a way to get around the system without studying much. My conclusion is, you can pass, but not score if you do the bare minimum. I think it's time to take my effort-proportionality to greater heights and prove I can hit the seemingly lofty peak.

Then to make matters worst (or better?), they had a horde of alumni talk to us during assembly. It was this casual talk where one alumni speaks to one class in a "question and answer" fashion. Intimidatingly, some are studying Law, some are doing medicine and they're all alumni of PJC. I would not be surprised by the woah-fication when their faculties were announced during the introduction. Some conversations were casual, while some were more informative, enlightening. It makes me wonder, what do I want to be?

I think the first thing that comes to my mind is to be doing something I enjoy. If it's not something I enjoy, then it has to pay well so I can retire and start my own business as soon as possible. Possibly, I want to be rich. But being rich is so not easy.

I think I should spent this remaining week for self reflection. The cause of the curse of the horseshoe magnet is a self-inflicted one, no one to blame. I feel jaded. Perhaps right now, I am carrying too much of a load. 4 hours of piano practice is something that has to give way. And if I'm not going to pursue something whole heartedly I rather not do it. Something has to go. I'm going to put it down. Officially, TY stops his Mission Etude Endeavor now. At this point of time Mugging is virtually impossible. I'm just quite fatigued. There's the Skit on Sunday and Saturday will be entirely devoted to rehearsals. That's it, my maiden voyage begins after the skit.

Just like how the dota-ers would say, time to go neutral creeping. After all, I'm severely under leveled.