Chaotic

I have no dreams, no aspirations.No inspiration, no motivation.But I think it's for the better

I think I'm starting to try to pay some attention in school.
I mean, though I still fell asleep at the 45 minute mark, but that's drastic improvement.

I think it's time to forget all the crap about intelligence, smartness or whatever crap and get down to work.I'm getting tuition-ed, I think. Personally, I like spoon fed information.

And I can't find my laser notes.

I told myself to totally forget about it. Ty, let go. Just let go. I even composed something yesterday, I want to play my etudes, improve them, my half completed revolutionary is going from half completion to a quarter completion. In other words, it's deteriorating exponentially. I'm still listening to all these stuff. And now, I can't really have the time to practice. And by practice I mean going on 3-4 hours spree. I don't really see the point of practicing 1 hour and not improving much.

Forget it.