I'm supposed to be studying Math now and I haven't done a single thing since I reached home around 1400 hrs. Math paper 2 is tomorrow and we're going to get spammed with statistics! And yet I still find myself unable to do statistics. I'm still pre-tutorial level, (which is one notch below the barely exam level). I gotta start learning them now. I have ONE night! Ganbatte!
Decided to blog first because I just came back from a jog. Well I mean, sprint. I finally decided to run because I'm getting really unfit and this greasy feeling is really inducing unease. I sprinted 3.2 Km. I don't like to jog, more of I don't like the slow and steady jog because that's boring. I prefer the short run that will last about 15 minutes at most including warm up. It saves a lot of time! Let's see, in three months time, I'm going to get back into the NINE ZONE!!.
Finally the Mid year examination arc is drawing to an end. I have holidays from Wednesday all the way to the next Monday (youth day), which I am so looking forward to. It makes me all motivated and psyched up for the last lap of this mid year examinations. yet ironically, I am not making use of this extra psychological boost and instead slacking down here. :(
Chemistry was decent today. It was the most survivable paper so far, to me at least. Electro chemistry came out in abundance. I mean seriously out of EIGHT questions, three were based on Electro chemistry and it's derivatives. It's fortunate that I did study electro chem to somewhat of an extent, which means I probably survived, hopefully. Organic chemistry was surprisingly easy, which is going to be the bulk of the marks I'm going to harvest. The last common sense question was really interesting. It was a relief that they had questions where you did not have to have much prior knowledge to attempt, that even a person that didn't prepare sufficiently could do well in. I gave away Solubility product though and for Acid/Base equilibra, I'd say it's a 50-50 chance I get some marks because I have no idea what I was doing. (but seriously, to me, what I wrote seemed logical!) I'm hoping for an E grade for chemistry overall though.
(and I realized I do have a lot to blog about).
//EDIT:typing this at 0101 hrs due to the fact that I couldn't finish my post just now
I started talking to my brother, which ate up some more time. Then I eventually started work at 21oo Hrs.
I finished studying the 3 distributions with normal distribution giving me the most problems. I am probably at post tutorial standard right now which is almost the barely examination standard, which means I'm quite dead for tomorrow's paper. I just briefly read through permutations/combinations as well as probability. I'm like more dead now. I never touched any pure mathematics! I honestly hope it will just somehow turn out fine tomorrow. Well, I've died to graphs and functions last week, so I guess there's nothing much more to die in anymore, or is there. *shivers in fear*. 3 more hours of a drowning sensation.
It's 0104 hrs in the morning right now. I am about to catch some sleep but I cannot rest in peace leaving an un-blogged post under drafts!
//End.Math.Rant
I feel like playing some etudes right now. My brother is hinting that I'm about to reach my potential maximum point of my 10/4 etude, which is so sad because it means this is how far I will go. It's almost like going to the airport without an airplane ticket having packed all the luggage but unable to fly. I want to fly! I want to soar with this etude! ( I mean seriously ). I am no where near mastering it, not even playing it decently (well, examination standard perhaps?). I still have my other stuff to keep me happy at least. Revolutionary is turning out quite neat, I hope. I'm starting to gain interest in the Ocean Etude. It's so sad that I can't really find time to practice these days. I cannot spend energy in an extravagant manner.
I want to learn flute, or the cello. It's a hard decision. A'levels are coming up but I'm still taking up a new instrument. Suicidal huh? Cello seems like a better choice but I don't like how gigantic it is (relative to the flute), and I like the portability of a flute. In addition, the flute doesn't sound as mellow as the cello. Tough choice! The equilibrium position of my liking is like wavering, however I have decided to be adamant once I've made my decision. Knowing how to play one instrument is just not enough. I want to be versatile. Though I don't really consider myself to be able to play the piano just yet (in my opinion, I think one must be able to play some chopin etudes, or equivalents to be considered barely able play the piano).
Today was one hectic day. I was balancing statistics with a myriad of conversations on MSN, some pertaining to Math itself. Today I spent quite some of my "stoning time" while reading Math notes pondering about friendship. I wondered what friendship to me. Is is something really disposable? And if it is, is this then, the ultimate evidence of selfishness? Friendship, to me, is just mutual company, mutual caring.
And then coincidently I saw a nick on MSN that says "Friendship is love without wings". It's a beautiful quote mainly because there are probably more than one interpretations to it. To me, it places friendship in a negative light. It highlight's it's limits by comparing it with love. It's like saying friendship is incomplete love, or in other words, love that cannot soar. However, one can interpret it inversely, which puts friendship in a positive light instead.
Everybody places their happiness in different aspects. However, when one places their happiness in the hands of something which they are not in control of, happiness becomes very volatile and inconsistent. Thus, I feel that it is better to place one's happiness in something which can be controlled to a greater extent. Placing happiness in friendship is definitely something which isn't wrong, neither it is bad, but the drawback is that a lot effort have to be made to be in control of the situation. I have come to one conclusion, anything that involves people is definitely confusing, inconsistent and complicated. For the inherent human nature of complexity is trammel to clarity and control.
And hope is the reagent to disappointment.
Seriously, why am I posting such stuff 0145 hrs midnight, with a Math Paper 0800 hrs the next morning.
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