Decapitated

Oh well. Finally HALF of all my papers are over. Merely half, and I'm half dead.

The days cut the papers horizontally, not vertically. I don't have much to comment about it though It's actually fine considering now we know what topics are more likely to be out in the 2nd section.

Today was really one hectic day. I woke up at the usual 0700 Hrs again. Started mugging math, which was again, I believe to no avail. This time round, I pulled my questions out and started doing. Ah and from Summation to Vectors to Complex Numbers I just kept doing. I had my trusty solution book lest I stumble across some cryptic question. So I just kept doing till around 1000 hrs where I manage to find some ease and confidence to play some piano. I was rampaging on my etude, going on frenzy that I swear I could hurt my burning arms playing 10/4 at 220 BPM. trust me, I almost died. So around 1100 hrs it was back to math again. This time round, I read a lot, tried to squeeze ApGp formulas, some vectors formulas and read some part of calculus. My brain seemed fine, I drank a surfeit of coffee, and I had some concentration boosting pill this morning with breakfast.

So time was soon up and I braved the dreadful journey to school under the blazing sun. I was drenched by the time I was in school. So well, the paper was nicely scheduled in a classroom. (I made an effort to check this time!). Having papers in classroom is better. Not only it is a thousand times more conducive, the collecting of scripts are way faster relative to the hall.

Three more hours of Math is certainly going to kill my brain. Trust me, I never did so much math in a single day before. The paper overall was okay. Just that I was rather pissed. I flipped the pages. wait. ONLY SIX marks on vectors and a stingy 5 marks on complex numbers. Vectors occupies 3 chapters of notes, while on the other hand Chapters 8A) Graphs and 8)B transformations both alone are worth almost 20 marks in total and I almost didn't studied them. Graphs! Those deadly graphs, and transformation of graphs. I already hate graphs, let alone graph distortion!! Now this is so not good. They had other manageable questions, I could do the Induction and Summation (surprisingly), but the amount of calculus questions were scarce. There was a differential equation question (oh wait, is it not?) that I didn't even know it was one. A integration question which I didn't know how to do!

I think this is a very unfavorable paper for me. Firstly, I studied a lot of complex and vectors, SO WHERE ARE THEY? Where is my Macclaurin series? This paper is so freaking weird that they even have matrices, and functions came out pretty heavy too. The over emphasis on what you call it again? Yes, transformations pretty much screwed the entire paper for me. I drew weird shapes and distort my graphs the wrong direction, now, now, I feel totally unjust.

Half way into the paper I was brain dead. Even doing simple algebraic manipiluation is troublesomely taxing on my brain, let alone think about more complex questions. I even forgot how to do a long division (which is well, really really sad). I threw away a lot of marks, because my brain couldn't function after a while.

I think hopefully I can scrape somewhere for paper 1. the fate of my math lies in paper 2. I don't think I will hit the rock bottom but not certainly lofty grades as well. Probably I hope after studying some serious statistics so I will be able to scrape even more.

I'm actually feeling highly fatigued right now. Maybe examinations aren't that exciting after all.