Seriously. Im in a dilema now. Not really a dilema. It's sorta like a guilty, regretish feeling. yet happy but sad. to me, it's like a Pyrrhic victory.
Yes. And today, it was made certian that Im in the team. And for some reason, coach decided not to touch the doubles pairings since they have trained tgt for some time. And one singles have to go. It's either wz or the other guy. And WZ was not on the list.
And yes, it's my fault. Totally my fault. If i didn't open my mouth asking for my rights, he would be in the team. and because he was made to play against me, and he lost. So he has to give up his place. I don't know why the coach favours the other guy over wz. And he has " his own reasons ". I still don't it.
Because...of my selfishness and my eagerness my friend cannot get to play. What's more, his better than me. I need him in the team ALONGSIDE me playing together. PJC team without Wz is just like Seigaku without Tezuka. Coach told him to wait for next year. I don't know why.
Seriously.
I feel unjustified once again. This coach, never fails to puzzle me with what his thinking. I did prove to him that I was capable. But he didn't have to remove one of our most remarkable players. For what? I don't get it.
Seriously. maybe this is what competition is all about. Wz has slacken over the past few weeks. He's not at the top form he used to be at. Probably right now, Ive already surpassed him. I don't know. But I just can't get complacement just because of one tyco win.
And yes. I have yet to lose any singles game on PJC's court just yet.
I played one of the seniors and I beat him today. I played 1 girl senior and kai ting and I won. One of them was painfully difficult to win because there was dance practice BEHIND me. And the sliding doors were actually left open. I had a hard time trying to adjust with the wind directions, and speed of the shuttle. I played one 2v1 game and I won that too.
4 wins today and 2 wins the other session. Yet to lose.
Oh yes. And math test! WOOHOO I PASSED! tyco tyco tyco im a tyco shit i got 5/10. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. yadaydayada~~ woots! i tot im going to like fail that horrible shit of maths crap lecture test but still i passed.
And so far all my test results is like on the dot, 50%.
And geog test. though I think I can get higher than 50%, but for the sake of balance, I would like a 12.5/25 as well. Though i didn't study for it...LOL
School was bleargh, tiring today. I don't know why. PE i was slacking like slack water. ( ohhhh my gosh no link again ). I didn't wan to pespire at all. but seriously that's a sick and impossible goal durin PE lessons. finally worked on pull ups and did like 30+ assisted pull ups (which can kill my arms alrdy). and we're supposed to do 42, but i was slacking away so i left early. why the heck do i need to train my 2.4Km run. Ive decided, an A will work for me. I don't need a beautiful 8 because that's still 5 points. DUH.
Me randomly crapping away. It's late. time to yawn, sleep. bye. POOF dreamland!
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