Rants

I just cut my hair.

I wonder why people have such lofty standards for short hair. Guidelines now require guys to have a slope at the back of their heads. What do they FREAKING think? my head is a playground or what. If there's a slope, there might be mass movement (land slides) which is so hazardous woohoo! I'm applying geog knowledge.

Mr wong is notorious for catching people even though they just cut their hair yesterday. I feel worried for myself. Having cut my hair, it's still two times longer than your average joe. And I find it frigging short. I tell you, this is the shortest my hair will go now Ask me to cut anymore and I'll tell you to die seriously. I can seriously foresee many people going "got cut meh?". Ridiculous, if you are another slope-with-no-fringe-nerd worshiper, just go and die. Long is defined by shoulder length, moderate is where my hair was last time and short is just anything that isn't moderate or long.

I will seriously stuff some moth balls up that person's arse if he tells me my hair is still long.

(and if you're guessing, it's still touching my collar but that's the most I'm going to drop the length on the back)

I don't see how they should bother so much about hair length when they have tons of female lians in our school with colored hair.

Seriously, school is starting to become ridiculous. You dislike a lesson, find it unproductive, you want to go home earlier so that you have more time to do other stuff and you get harassed, and mocked at by teachers. What is the freaking problem. Tons of people in our class stay every week on fridays for the useless GP lesson, and half of them got Us. So is this what you define as the productivity of a lesson. Or are we bound to lessons no matter even if we don't need them. or rather, find them of totally no use. I guess we are often judged for having no creativity, no initiative, don't know what's good for ourselves. If I voice out and say that wasting 3 hours of friday afternoon every week for something not useful at all is felony, I get marked as rebellious. And if I have a vastly higher sense of discernment I get marked for breaking the rules. Is this how a college would treat their students, like babies? No freedom in own method of learning. People learn in different ways. I can't handle lectures because I get drowsy, so what? I am confined to the lecture hall like once everyday and nothing goes in. Does that mean I must eventually adapt to this orthodox method of learning when I can just get the notes and find a quiet corner in the school to digest the information on my own. And I can gurantee anyone that I will get hauled to the discipline committee just because of that.

This is a school whereby a college is supposed to nurture everyone's own individual style of learning and whereby a machination scheme should not be enforced. It's not a factory, don't put a cohort in a lecture hall, feed them 'food' and send them for tests. Then end of the year, sent to the slaughterhouse and that is when they see how productive their "force feed" was.

Of course, I should have known. The general studying methods don't apply to me. I'm better off a private candidate. And I seriously should have known. I have treated the school not as a school but just as a ground where I get my material. Half of the time, I'm asleep in school (or more), I just make use of the tests, exams, materials and teachers more often than not, what I learn is all by myself at home. I had decided to choose which lessons to attend, decide which are beneficial and which days are totally not productive and if they are not, I will not attend.

A normal shallow average person would think I'm out of the mind. Someone who cannot appreciate or understand, someone who have gone through too much brainwashing by the authoritative system of Singapore will not understand how often the authority is wrong. Of course, it occurs to me that it definitely takes the above-average confidence (or for this matter arrogance), to criticize a system.

I thought of dropping out, perhaps taking as a private candidate.Definitely a very tempting option. Mind you, to me now, the school is like more of a deterrence than anything. But a levels have been registered and I can't back out now (or register privately for that matter). I guess I just have to live with it for several months. As of now, I just cannot wait for the June holidays to come, as well as for school to finally end in a few months where the long period of study break will come in.

Now as I look forward, I only look towards the holidays (more of the study yourself break). Whereby I can convert the time in school to a period of concentrated self training at home. It's not a matter of perspective. This isn't something that is debatable. It's something I am more suited for.

Today E learning day was well, a bad attempt by the school. Of course, I think it would pass as a good joke. Flooded school portal caused me not to be able to do any of the assignments when I logged in this morning. Of course, the free holiday was nice.

The next holiday is in approx 16 days time. 1st may. If I really get too sick of school I'm going to make my own holidays. In slightly more than a months time, would be june holidays.

It's time to head to bed. I'm going to keep my blog private for the time being, lest I get annoyed by dumb anonymous people (no pun intended). And I can foresee that the nature of my posts are going to get more controversial.