Perma-slack

Indulging in slackiness can be really really really addictive. Didn't go to school, relapse of fever and sore throat this morning which mysteriously vanished somewhere around noon. I feel totally fine right now, yahoo! Went to see doctor to get MC, (my mum insisted, somehow). And then doc had really the cheek to say "you're fine!", I coughed, and then my mum asked for mc, and then he grinned at me. Actually, I don't even know what I'm doing at the clinic, with mr wong as CT, who needs mc....

Spa tommorow. So not relaxing. Skill C,D again. What a repeat! Im not study so I hope I remember my sig figs and stuff to write. But I think tommorow's experiment will be electrical and I don't know how to write the discussion. DEAD. Tommorow is practical day again. @(*#(@#(@#@#@*372873

My bro is equally or more slack. He ponned from last thursday till today which is FOUR school days. Now, what a steal! He stole almost a march holiday! Now i'm jealous, or wait, I shouldn't really be, I didn't go to school for 3 three days in this one and a half weeks. I'm almost equally "powerful!". What's wrong with skipping school when you know you're going to school just to sleep. Perma-slack is the way to go.

I find it harder and harder to relate to people. I think I am increasingly increasing in being anti-social.

I find myself in bad temper since. I wonder why. Totally unsettling tempest within me. I kicked the chair and banged the keys when I couldn't play winter wind smoothly (that is so childish of me). Not being to able to play winter wind is just like natural, afterall it's a l33t imbal etude. I flared at my bro because he disturbed my practice. I got pissed with my neighbour's dog trying to act like a metronome.

Someone near my estate died so there is a funeral being held right behind my house (yes I can hear chattering noises). And I was sadistically blasting my winterwind at top volume. I think they heard it. While blasting, the uneven tempo, the uneven tones of descending of chromatically patterned notes and the disturbingly violently loud crashing sound probably annoyed them very much. All played very not musically, and in an irritating manner.But I didn't care. And too, I played movement 3 of the Moonlight sonata in rage, inspiring to ANNOY people. I was actually expecting people to come complaining very soon. Of course, all done, in frustration.

Of what?

Not being able to play winter wind. Okay, I must be insane. Because winter wind is a chopin etude, and amongst them, probably one of the harder ones. (Chopin should have written, "for people with four hands or 20 fingers to attempt). Lets say Im too ambitious. I don't like giving up so once I start on something and I have sufficient interest to upkeep the effort, I do not give up easily. I don't like letting go and giving up because that equates to admitting defeat. I started it with the curious intent, and inspired by some youtube videos, initially took it as somesort of technical excercise, but when I go in deeper, I find myself sucked it, and I feel totally emo being unable to play it. If you don't know what is winter wind, it's 0p 25 no 11, you can check it up on youtube and tell me whether you GASP at it.

I don't care. I'm not giving up.

My teacher would probably kill me for playing a chopin etude. especially winter wind.

I just can't get enough of the forbidden fruit sensation