Dizzy

Dizzy Dizzy. Feeling extremely dizzy now. Lack of sleep perhaps. I seriously wonder how I can sleep more than an average person and feel so tired every now and then. Perhaps, I'm sleepaholic. I need many many hours of sleep to be on the average activeness level.

I slept pretty much quite decently last night, but I'm quite sure I'm feeling extremely sleepy right now.

I didnt mug much yesterday (as planned). Me studying is just like a fish crawling on the land. It's so unnatural. But now (as a fish), I have to crawl a 100 metre race on land. How hideous is that. Afterall, mugging is a hideous crime (pardon the pun).

I have four subjects and several topics I know nuts about. (completely zero). It's either I find that 120% concentration button or I'm dead. The timer is ticking real fast. Ironically, I feel no pressure.

The given title "common test" is merely a subterfuge. A test is never a full paper spanning 2 hour plus plus plus. That's an examination! So label it right. Well, consequences aside, I would say I still, would be looking forward to relaxing period of time across days and between papers. And march holidays are coming up.

Plans plans plans. I still have many movies I want to watch. But seeing how one movie can use up an entire night, I think I should start slashing off the stuff on my to-watch-list. Afterall, I am moderately amused after watching "L" ytd and probably will not need another movie to keep me hyped for the next few weeks.

I have a full day ahead of me. (well almost).

And if I can't find that button, I'll just have to make it.

I guess I maybe I unknowingly like the thrill of stress of pressure. Without them, I can never even get down to my books. I'm taking things too lightly, and perhaps, there's this irking feeling that I'm seriously overestimating myself.

For the past few weeks, I have been living a physical life in school. Physically present, but mentally absent. The numbers of lectures I am half-awake in can be counted with one hand and the numbers of tutorials which I did not copy will not exceed three. And when I reach home, I hardly touch my bag. That sums up my situation right now. I love the pressure.

Hitting the fourth page of Moonlight Mvt 3. I'm so glad I didn't give up.