Somehow, I just cannnot sleep easily nowadays. it feels like im too energetic during the night. Ytd i tried sleeping at around 1 and it was only at 3am when i fell asleep. staying awake for 1-2 horus every night before you can fall asleep is really horrible, (and painful). once in awhile, it's OK, it's fine because 1-2 hours is just nice for you to reflect on stuff, but if everyday, i find myself running out of things to think about. then....nasty thoughts come in....; vengeful thoughts come in...and then..worries and problems come in. i don't wanna think about such things...so please...please, let me just fall asleep! oh yeah i still dunno how to do QT so wud someone teach me??
Today, NOT another crap day. was rather special in someways. Went to fareast plaza with my aunt and bought a new shoe and 2 shirts. yea, and as expected, from Sunrise Yonex. LOL. anyways, i bought my powercushion 305 le!! yay, it rocks!! it's black, red and silver and really really very nice....but it costed my aunt like S$170. thanks man!!!. bought one teal colour yonex t-shirt and one red collared shirt. haha. so nice....love yonex stuff. the person at the shop was a gal which was like...err..really cute lols...i don't know how to say, but i just found her really sweet..maybe ill go bac there to buy stuff more often. LOLS. at the changing room i was like "OH no i put on so much weight". trying to grow taller by eating alot didn't really help, infact it made me fatter. dang, gotta do more excercises. (eh wait but i think im already excercising alot..>_<)
So anyways at night was supposed to be good too but it turned out mediocre. infact, maybe it was fine afterall. Supposed to play tennis with bear, dorreen, ziping and yiwen and those older people but in the end...it RAINED. ARGHHH ARGHHH ARGHHH. nooo, hate the rain man. 0.o. so we went somewhere in jurong to eat some food and went home after that. at least some social activity is better than pwning noobs in dota...
Nowadays i really feel slightly stressed out. Results??? oh my....it's sooo close...soo close soo close. im getting abit..nervous thinking about it. have i done well? no? yes? sometimes i really wish i can get it and know it now so i can go somewhere or make a decision. i was confident, but not now. i wonder why...
LALLALALALALA. im crapping away.
I woke up today...feeling very vexed. because I got a pimple!! oh yeah, i really get quite frustrated u know. HAIS hais hais. and it already burst while i was sleeping. many things do happen while im asleep. for example, i kick the telephone off my bed while im asleep. somehow, i know it when i hear the BANG on the floor but im too asleep to get up and put it in place...oh well, just some random crap about mie.
Oh. and my house got a water purification system and now the water is very clean. infact, it tastes very different already. yeah, i feel psychologically psyched up when drinking such water and it gives me a psychological boost that makes me feel healthy. actually, i hope there's more to it...;.clean water!!! roar!!!
^_^
making some random faces. Im finally getting a slight hint of sleepiness from my brain but each time i get that i struggle 20 mins in bed and get up to use my com again. Not good for me? yeah i agree! but i can't help it...
again, some random crap. I need to reach 170cm by the end of this yr, that is my aim!!!......jiayou!! ganbatte. (talking to my body). PLS GROW!!!!
OOO. somehow i feel some kind of weird inertia force like thingy that i dun wanna publish this post and keep on crapping and ranting. im good at impromtu stuff u know. (if u're bored, u can always call me, and u'll understand)...., but anyway, im probably the only one bored around..so. forget about it...
AHHH *.* gotta improve badminton. gotta learn tennis...gotta grow taller. gotta become stronger...got to...got to...many things...many many things.i shall start of by visiting the pool tmr (not to play pool but to swim!)....maybe i shld go jogging to regain my 9+ min timing for 2.4km...im surely lacking in fitness because i get tired more easily...
Oh and more random stuff. It feels good to have a phone beside me nowadays (yeah house phone). because that was what i was deprived of for SIX YEARS. no phone in my room. you know how much trouble i have using the telephone. and now im sharing my room with my bro so conversations cannot be too late at night.....or at least for the sake of privacy, i don't like talking while someone is near me...that's just me.....
My maid's still ironing clothes and at least there's someone else awake. 1 more hour or slightly less the whole house will be quiet and ill be the sole survivor. perhaps i should go down n steal some food....or maybe...
i shld just go to bed...
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