The weekend was here, but it's here again

Friday night used to be a very happy occasion. Now it's just uhm, normal. You know, the usual. Nothing much to be happy about anyway.

Yesterday was cohesion day with the platoon at Novena. Had Tim sum buffet. Sounds yummy, but in fact eating "theme and variations on tim sum" was kinda a bad idea because it was the same old thing over and over again. There weren't much choices and there were a surfeit of excess food left lying around. it looked bad on us, but somehow it was much better than being coerced to play some penalty game to have losers gorge themselves upon food and fill their already so full stomach.

I did not join the rest. I wanted to just go home and chill it out. Recently I've been playing Dota. So I'm on that Dota-Piano cycle. Repeatedly. Dota helps me chill off sometimes and I can't be practicing piano for the entire day. My mind needs to absorb information and digest whatever I'm memorizing/grinding. I'm changing my Debussy (which I am not very inclined to) to a slightly harder, more virtuosic and melodious "the lark" by Balakirev. Which means I still have rep-plowing to do. Sigh. Tomorrow I'll have my lesson whereby I hope my Etincelles does not fail me.

I don't really feel lonely anymore now that I have a very visible and realistic meaning in life right in front of me. yes, exams does help. fear of exams does better, but not very nice isn't it. I shouldn't worry about that. fear and anxiety will take effect when the time comes. After Ord will be University life and being an engineering undergraduate puts me in a class of males again. (it's a stereotype but well). there are rumors of PRC-fest in engineering courses and everyone's a mugger. that is surely scary. they say university is the best time of a person's life. Well, we'll wait and see. I have to rely on my CCA to find my future wife. (or maybe just a girlfriend during university). Somehow, mathematically or physics inclined girls are somewhat, scary. I'd prefer the artsy kind, preferably musically. But i don't want a girl who rips chopin etudes apart and falls asleep while playing liszt's transcendentals as if it's childs play. that is overkill.

As of now, I don't need a girl in my life. I'm contended right now with my goals, inspirations. And whatever I have. I don't see how much time I can put aside to date. (as much as I want to actually)

Maybe I'll join Piano ensemble or badminton recreational. Or both.