Don't worry I'm not going to narrate each and every day and every single minute detail of my life in ETI. I did close to nothing today. Again. Gym-ed, slept, read my music theory book, watched criminal minds on my Itouch? Tomorrow I'll finally have work to do. Not exactly a good thing. 6 man carrier boat doesn't sound fun and I haven't used an OBM before. What the heck.
People are starting to become aware of my stay out status, plus the fact that I book in each morning just to wait till 5 and book out. I wonder if the course instructors are expecting a high standard from us "auxiliary" instructors, thus the majorly overdosed welfare (stay out plus stay in bunk whole day what more can I ask?). I hope I don't get screwed too badly when I reveal (hopefully in the most discrete manner) that I forgot NUTS about everything.
123 days to ORD! It's a nice number, but nicer when it drops further. I can't wait to cease living in a "communal environment" where selfishness and self centeredness cannot exist. Every action you make you have to consider because you're always being observed and watched by platoon mates. You cannot do as you wish, in other words. There is nothing wrong with a little selfishness. But I really do not like waking up learning to deal with all sorts of people and their temperament. Nothing in particular has happened. But when good things happen to you, people watch you with green eyes. When bad things happen, either they tell you to suck it up, OR they give you "fake sympathy". Yes, people empathize. It's like " I know you signed extra, I know how it feels. I know and I care, are very different matters altogether".
Ultimately, it's what matters to oneself that one will care about. For example, the book out file went "MIA" just when i was about to book out and I had my dad waiting at the camp gates for me and I was pressed for time. I attempted to find it at where it ought to become, and the people who ought to have kept it well did bother to find, but they were lacking that sense of urgency. they just left it in the lecture room! It's true. they're stay IN, I'm stay OUT. that is the line between what is worth going the extra mile for. In army it's not so easy to get into a locked room because some "unnecessary" paper work and drawing of keys from another 100 meter away room is required. It was just a nonchalant "you go there, draw that key, open that room and take the file and come back bunk and sign". Sounds easy, because everyone is just changing down to admin attire at starting to rot into their beds.
Compare and contrast. If the file were to go missing on a friday, imagine the chaos. Everyone will be frantically searching for that damn file. It's true. Only when something matters to a person will they put in effort. No human being will go an extra mile for just another fellow platoon mate. They will not even care. And that is how the book out file landed itself LOCKED in the lecture room in the first place.
I'm not pissed. Because if I was in the same shoes as them, I would have done the same thing. Sit back, chill and relax. And take up the 'who ask you be a stay out personnel" attitude and with folded arms I wouldn't care shit. This is just sucky human nature.
To be honest, there are a few who can take hardship and not complain but there are fewer who can watch others enjoy a good fortune without a pinch of jealousy. While the others go for lessons, they peep into my room and find me just lying their feeling so bored on my bed. I have slept beyond my fatigue levels again and again.
There is still 10 weeks left of next year whereby it is effectively a drought of public holidays minus CNY. December is holiday month, while November is staying out phase for me. It's a matter of (I think) 18 weeks. There are countless people whom I find annoying, I want to quickly finish this crap up. NS does have it's up points. but dealing with people is tiring.
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