I have a problem here. I refuse to sleep.
It's Wednesday and my weekend began a couple of hours ago. Platoon cohesion tomorrow at Novena combo-ed with my own half day off and continuously combo-ed again with Deepavali and finally the weekend which makes it a four day weekend. It's somehow funny to think that if I don't turn up for Chinese food with the rest tomorrow I will be an AWOL personel. Amusing.
Life has taken a weird turn here. Heaven or hell, I don't know yet. Basically, I got attached out to NeeSoon camp (ETI which abbreviates for Engineers training institute) for three weeks. And during this duration, I am a stay out personnel. Before you say hooray, the other end of the double edged sword is that I book in BY 0630 hrs, AND I have to be consuming my breakfast by then at the cookhouse which means I have to reach the camp gate around 15 minutes prior to the cut off time. Brutal. But it's still a choice, I have a bunk. In fact, half a bunk is almost mine. 8 beds shared amongst 3 people. It's generous. The luxurious furnishing of ETI indeed makes life much more pleasant! This time round, not as trainees, but as auxiliary instructors.
Instructors. a daunting word. Sound pretty cool. but actually I do not really know how I could help. the senior specialists in charge of this course seem quite optimistic about our help but we were trainees about a year ago, and most of our knowledge have diminished over time. And add on the fact that we do not apply everything we learn there! most of the stuff are USELESS, and redundant. I guess for now we'll just support the course in whatever way we can.
STAY out FTW. it's just three words. My leave/off spree starts on Nov 30 and possibly ends at 27 dec. That is about a month or so! Amazing? That means I'll be quite civilian from now onwards since I'll be staying out for sometime! What a great gift before ORD.
I should really start grinding up levels on piano. Gaining technique is just like growing plants. You need effort to water and time to nurture. I'm trying not to rush into things but I cannot resist playing my pieces at full speed. Ive got to admit, section by section practice can be mind numbing and boring but it is actually the best way to improve and evolve something unstable into a steady, musical performance worthy repertoire. Sometimes, I still doubt my own ability. Each time I flinch at a section, or falter unnecessarily, I picture the examination scene and inside me, I freak out a little. I have to practice more.
Been playing quite a lot Dota. In fact, I went to play LAN (dota) on tuesday's nights out. Had a pretty satisfactory time there. We live our lives sometimes just to waste our time away. Maybe in the meaningless pursuits of life will we find meaningful things relatively meaningful. And with that, somehow. We cannot really be happy with where we are, but we should be happy or make it so that we are happy with our progress in anything we do. Let it be fitness, music, academics or whatever. I realized why running and clocking mileages gave me so much satisfaction. It is not that burning swelling heart warming feeling after a run but more of the progressive improvement that I benefit from, which makes me feel much better after each long run. Progress is the biggest motivation in our lives, and that alone can keep us happy. There need not be a goal that is reachable, but as long as we head towards that direction. Maybe we will feel happy.
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