uneventful sunday

I watched Inception yesterday. I could understand the hype all about this show. It is indeed, great. Brilliant I would say. It is a definite must watch and potentially a must watch twice too. You probably would gain more insight on the 2nd watch. I haven't got the luxury of a second viewing but I am really intending to. the show is at times confusing but the rate of producing new and complex information surpasses the resolution of current mysteries. this is a film of it's own rules and it's own set of physics and possibilities and therefore, we have to really pay attention to the hints dropped here and there to catch the whole picture. it's like learning a job on the go, not text-book styled learning, but catch the facts (or rules) as the story progress.

I believe there are certainly loopholes in logic, because usually this kind of films tend to create unnecessary exceptions for plot devices. everything converges towards the meaning of the film and sometimes the original intended motive cannot be sustained. However, it is still an intriguing film with not loopholes, but many unexplained things. but it's a good things because these unexplained things are nicely perceived as mysteries or food for thought rather than loopholes.

I personally did not really find the idea of dream within a dream intriguing. I liked the concept of what's real and fake and I find the protagonist's ex-wife (dead and insane) pretty convincing and realistic. I can empathize to how a person can lose his or her mind in such a situation. She may seem insane, or retarded in some ways, but I think our human minds can only perceive that much. anything beyond drives us insane.

the concept of inception is also intriguing because perhaps the film itself as a whole is an inception itself. plant ideas into people's mind, let them grow and make them think it's their own. pretty interesting. it's a pretty obvious, everyday thing which we never really observe because usually it's root cannot be traced. ideas define us. and that is the true nature of influence. this is perhaps how people change everyday-under the effect of inception. but in this case, inception is a much more deliberate attempt, which suggests the cunning/manipulative nature of mankind. Everyday, we use such things. we try all sorts of things, to gain favor and attempt to orchestrate things and people to our likings. Inception, is just a cooler/more fiendish way of putting it.

Overall. good food for thought. A pretty decent sci-fi with a pretty good ending which is intensely controversial. this leaves a lot room for discussion. but end of it, we have to bear in mind that we are thinking (or left thinking) what the creator of inception intended us to. So end of it, it doesn't matter if he was dreaming or not because the show itself isn't real. It shows us that we can choose to believe our own reality. pretty much one of the more macroscopic effects of the film itself.

It's been quite sometime since I wrote quite a bit for a movie.

Back to reality,

Sunday was uneventful. One phone call, and swoosh, back to good Ol' seletar. hanging around in office the whole day waiting for things to happen or the legendary dismissal timing. (been so long since i heard the term dismissal because nowadays everything is about booking out. i fear for my uni life, i think i need a civilian conversion course!). It's pretty sad how they burn my weekends. I slept nearly only about 3 good hours last night up till now I feel tired.

A hot topic within my consciousness these days is how I've changed in the past like 1 year or so since I've enlisted. True, one bonus point is that my tolerance for sleep deprivation has increased about tenfold. I usually find it hard to survive a sleep over in the past, now I can dig a shellscrape the entire night and not sleep till 4pm the next day. Guard duty and late night shifts make me adapt to staying up late because it is certainly child's play compared to walking your good friend and good o'l rifle clad in smelly luminous vest and stinky beret walking around in the dark and playing with that scanner dildo look alike that goes tee-tee at every check point. pretty sad. but still, resistance up! and that's a bonus.

I don't really think I've become much fitter. compared to post, and pre-alevels I am certainly slimmer and fitter now but most of the comments from people are a pre-biased perspective that people become fitter when they enlist and the fats on their chest are muscles and not fats because they must have been knocking it down a lot in army. I am fitter, but not so much. I could be much fitter. but people think army is a place where people become automaticallly fit. that is not true. we still spend the same amount of effort for each push up. the soil in tekong or any other camp does not make it any easier.

I don't like how I am emotionally, or even my perspectives have changed. quite drastically. I am a good boy out of camp but I swear relentlessly in camp. Starting there was resistance not to, but slowly I gave in. Influences. I had my first sip and can of beer (thankfully, only one and only) in camp.

I think I've become very cynical and untrusting. ever since you left. I don't know why. nothing seems right. Ive recovered quite a good deal, my life is normal. I have three active infatuations (yea omg right). but nothing still feels right. happiness is hard to come by. I just look forward to knocking off everyday and going back to bunk and rot there watching videos after I hit the gym once in awhile. Weekends are incredibly lonely sometimes but I choose to dwell in it because sometimes I find it more disappointing to hang out and be disappointed with it. I've become rather unadventurous, timid. I need more life. Where are the day where I wake up feeling empowered, and I book out with you in mind, and just looking forward to see you drives my life, Maybe I should learn to be happy myself first. but after all, there is nothing really to be happy about. because i will only reborn in seven months time.