this time of the year

I told my brother I hope his promos would come soon. I told my other brother that I hope he could become sec 3 soon. I told the calender I wanted Christmas here soon. If these events come, it means I'm just a whisker away from ORD.

Just wandering around the internet makes me realize that the current batch in BMT is going to be posted to my camp soon. It was almost exactly one year ago when that happened to me. From Tekong to Seletar was a big big transition. From Jaguar to Alpha, retarded changes and Alpha Coy was one of the most depressing moments in NS up till now. Seeing people get their posting, and realizing that we're all one whole year ahead of them makes me feel good. it's bittersweet actually.

Next week I would be staying back in Company line to do guard duty while the rest go out on Ex.CSH which stands for Combat Support hospital (or something like that). It's a combat medic exercise but we're supporting it. Outfields, after outfields. I can foresee myself being quite free. And I am definitely going to stock up my Ipod with videos and my DS with games before I book in tonight. No choice. And I got my book for Final theory test. I probably will study this week. If I don't, then it must be because I am too lazy.

the first week of July is over. Very soon, July will be over. Upcoming events include a MOB manning which span about 2 weekends. maybe one more outfield, and lots and lots of annoying training. I just hope there's no more parades or whatever. I want to quickly go for Claymore and when I come back, it will be slack and slack slack. I can settle down and embark on the things I want to do.

On one hand I have a lot to do, but yet sometimes I harp at the meaninglessness of life and these things which I am embarking on. Oh what great irony! Hoho. I manage to revive a little energy for piano. I haven't had lessons for THREE whole weeks. I need to show my teacher something good next week. I probably won't get nights out next week so I have to practice extra hard this week. I'm done with most of the repertoire for my program, and now I have the flexibility to decide what I want to change out of my recital. Some pieces are good to play through once but it's a little tedious to master because it gets BORING after awhile. It's like the Bach which I am playing. I cannot get down to play it again considering I forgot most of the notes.

I want to get fit. but digging a shellscrape without sleep in the middle week is not good for momentum. running and exercise requires alot of momentum. seriously. I felt weak on wednesday and thursday last week. And I was being a big fat sloth for friday and saturday. I only got today to redeem myself. How sad. I haven't been running in like FIVE whole days. (talk about getting fit, it's such an uphill task!). I blame the outfield. And next week, I have no partner to go running in camp because the rest are going outfield. Damn it.

Piano. Fitness. Driving. (and I want to learn the cello!), I want to play my brother's violin accompaniment. I want to watch many many shows. I want to start playing the games I downloaded. I have so much to do. Shame on you Tay Yi for saying that life is meaningless.

I feel invigorated for abit here. I am going to run later (PLEASE shoot me if I don't). If NS was going to change most of me, the part which I want to survive is my love for classical music and piano. Please, don't take it away!