Motivation

It is now pretty evident how and why the heck I was posting so much. (avoiding studying). It is definitely true that my blogging rate has dropped, at least the length of the posts. I have been absent for a while, I believe. Thursday was the release of PSLE results. And as I have posted, my little brother results was pleasantly surprising. We were looking for somewhere about 260 but his results transcends that and exceeds our expectations. Now, his future is paved as he walk into the route of elites. I get this irking feeing that I should have actually studied slightly more for PSLE.

Well,>270 is insanely lofty.(enough to deprive people of oxygen to breath, as they gasp!) 26X is high, 25X is a pretty good score. Around 24X is where people say "not bad", and slightly below that is "bleh, just average". Anything beneath that below will deem a person as "not academically inclined". though there are clearly exceptions, I believe. That night, riding on all that festive mood, nostalgia, I actually read up on how they calculated the T-score and stuff.

I normally don't like to regret. but if I actually put in some effort, 260+ shouldn't be a problem for me then. The problem was then I was satisfied with that oh so average 244. My life probably would be different now, somewhat. And I wouldn't have taken O'levels either.

But still, I feel happy for him and his future ahead. It's a distinctly illuminated pavement!

Actually to call these days that go by "holidays" would be an understatement. In my opinion, this is probably the mega-est-holiday to date. A holiday worth few months without any hint of school or school work. It is great, but again, I find myself exerting pressure on myself. immense, intense pressure. I actually feel stress because I'm not practicing enough. My La Campanella is still horrible, it does not need a major revamp but a lot of polishing. Challenges are great motivation too. I have to prepare Chopet 10-12 (revolutionary) and 25-10 (the octave) to get owned by Jasmine. Oh great. But somehow it plays a major role in motivation for practice. I need to up my standards, I need to realize I should stop memorizing all the wrong notes without having any clue of what I am pressing wrongly.

One more week to Japan. Sigh!

Actually if I look myself from another perspective, I think I am eccentric. Somewhat. It's late, and I feel I need some exercise.