More vile than evil

The days that go by converges. My level of interest for many things (which have been wavering all this while), is plummeting. I barely get interested in stuff common people do. I realized. I picked up the DS and the myriad of games selectively selected by ore-sama not only fails to captivate me but I actually reached the limit of agony. Boring like hell. Seriously. How do people have all the patience to grind their lives through RPGs. Painfully boring, there is no incentive, there is no joy, no life, and no rewards to be reaped. Dota also ceases to interest me. I wanted to blog about this for sometime already, but apparently it has always slipped my mind.

I have spent my sec 3,4 days actually wasting my time on Dota. But right now after I have gotten out of all these mess. I finally am able to speak from a third person perspective. Given a choice right now (with ample time) to continue on what I thought I've missed out, I start to think twice.

I think most guys in Singapore have played Dota before, or actively plays Dota. If the people on Dota are Singaporean male teenagers, I would seriously have to fear and worry for our country's future. Reason simple-there are far too many retarded guys on Dota. For this I would for once, like to take the female side this time round-that guys are retarded. Yes, they are, especially those on Dota.

I have never seen a single game where no vulgarity is sprout, vernacular language is used, and it seems totally like no one knows what it is meant by proper English. I can imagine the blond haired monkey "Ah beng", behind the screens of the character sprouting so much profanities. This also applies to reality, people who do not know proper expression, and so evidently demonstrate their mental density and their lack of proper vocabulary. And also, people who use it as a habit, are equally doltish.

Granted, it is actually a game with good intention. There is far more strategy and skill involved, but all have been misused as a form of self glorification. I wonder since when has it been part of men's ego to own in Dota. Getting killed is really humiliating. (seriously, I wonder how did the creators make it so intensely humiliating to get slaughtered in Dota). I always wonder why is it that most players tend to get more ego-centered, pride defensive rather than competitive.

It is actually fun, but many factors spoil the fun. I think apart from deliberate time wasting, I will definitely give the game a miss. It is better to miss the fun, than to be associated with all the people playing the game, who have no self control, no intellectuality. And whats more, Dota is nowadays more associated with shabby lan shops with desperate low intellectuality levels.

To sum up, if better 'English' dominates the games over profanities, there would be plus one to consideration. If only people above a certain intellectuality play the game, that would be plus ten to consideration. People are missing the point. I don't like being called noob or whatsoever, but still, they all forget that it is just a freaking game. Cyber sports or whatsoever is another lame excuse to turn something worthless into some worth. Another illusion! Bravo! The new world has now further lowered it's standards.

My stand is that the majority is more often wrong than right, that is because of the normally distributed intelligence level of the population. Of course, again, exceptions apply.

A few days ago, I was actually being put in a situation with a pen and paper. There was this urge to draw graphs, to write mechanisms, or to just state why transition elements have colored compounds. I actually find myself actually missing school work. Get it right, NOT school, but studying. It was actually quite an enjoyable period of time (till I got really sick of it all).

It's late now. I want to sleep actually but I can't. (body clock somewhat displaced again!). The key to the magic 6 hours of piano practice everyday is to wake up early, as evident by today's 5.5/6 hours which I only managed to accomplish since I woke up at noon. Some people say I'm scary. Actually 6 hours for a day you spend totally at home is not excessive. In fact, I think it is not enough. The ability to sit there for hours is definitely uncanny. But improvement drives me the hardest and the best.

I start to exert greater pressure on myself nowadays. I can't relax properly. I have to stagger through pages of the Ballade in G minor just because I want to learn it in record time. And just for self satisfaction. Nocturne is going fine, I'm getting a little sick of it. La Campanella is almost there. (seriously, it is really a monster), I am polishing the Revolutionary Etude with more confidence. Octave etude makes my wrist ache a little. Everything is going well. With 5.5 hours I can actually make progress. I need to up the level soon.

I think La Campanella beats the whole A'levels hands down in terms of difficulty. I conquer it, I conquer Everest. But again, whats next?