The restless mind

Aw. What a restless mind I have this afternoon. Does nothing good but wonder into uncertainty! Flips my mood and sends it oscillating up down up down. I sat down at the piano this afternoon and can't even get my mind down to it. The rationale behind things sudden broke down and I got frustrated and stopped practicing after one hour. How sad. It is said that one should not look for any progress if frequency of practice is too little. That sucks. That means I can only hope to maintain in the next two years. However, this is considered to be least of my worries.

Restless. I can never get my mind down to sight read, nor plow through new material, or even refine any section because my mind is restless and I can't help but worry. I can't concentrate. And there I suddenly found the remedy to the restless mind. Brainless entertainment!

So I went online searching for something nice to watch. I think the next episode of Lost is coming out soon and I am so looking forward to it. I prefer Japanese drama over Korean somehow because I prefer the style and language (albeit gets too fantasy-ish too often). This time, for a change, I watched two episodes of a show titled "Kiina". A detective show about a female detective who has super photographic memory, observant skills and is quite on the emotional side. This series seem to explain things very scientifically. The worst you can get in a detective show is the solution is not convincing at all. That would cause audience to feel cheated, a sense of resentment, or worst, mild anger towards the series and producers. So the solution is of utmost importance. Some I've seen tries to manage a promise they can't keep. The suspense elevates so high and lofty but plummets when they can't upkeep the plot with a reasonable explainable. However, Kiina does that pretty well. The arguments and solutions are reasonable because seemingly they are based on real life things that happen. It's a new drama, I assume because there are only four episodes.

Really helps get my mind off things I don't want to worry about.

Step by step, towards dooms day.