Closer and closer

I never thought I could type so fast on messenger that it literally lagged.

Anyway, what happened to that "Without faltering, without stumbling". In a few days (actually two), which translates to approximately 48 hours, the gates open. I thought I would have given it all, I thought I would have ran with all my strength for this last lap. turned out otherwise. I am left huffing and puffing at the last lap. The lack of energy is inexorable, but yet what hinders progress to a larger extent is the lack of motivation. "Let's just get it done", "Smile, the paper would be noob friendly","even if you die, there's still the holidays to party!", all form of pseudo-optimism starts billowing like tsunami waves. Suffocated, goaded by these urges, and eventually I gave way. One week of half slacking, and half hearted revision. Timely.

I was greeted by a rude knock at the door. My dad was telling me off. " Don't play the piano so much ". Yes I know, I had been escaping to the piano recently. 30 minutes of reading notes, then off the more notes (no pun intended). I was doodling away at Fantasie Impromptu. Yes I just started learning today and I am one and a half page memorized and at almost full speed. (I personally think that is too fast). I think my dad noticed. How could it be possible to accomplish so much in one day. The only reason-I haven't been studying.

Yes I know, two more days. I can still start studying geography (or for that matter, start building up on that foundation which was lacking all the time), I can read GP, I can do wonders with two days. But what now, where's the motivation. I think some people are having high hopes of my A levels. No, don't. Please don't.

My Dad asked me, "prepared already?" I was about to quote C.C.Colton, " Examinations are formidable even to the best prepared, for the greatest fool may ask more than the wisest man can answer.".

See, I've been blogging more. It tells you where (insert arbitrary time frame) had gone to. Defenestrated. Yes, out of the window, into windows XP.