Wrong

Warning:EMOnising post

Is it wrong to want to be with you?

Is it wrong for us to spent time together?

Am I in the wrong?

Am I asking for too much?

This week, though filled with holidays, was the worst ever week in awhile. Alot people sick recently. I rather have a 40 degrees burning fever than to have things burdening and bugging you all the while.

I remember whenever I was horribly sick, there was this look on my parent's face. Their expression, and their eyes,their look, their aura, gave me an impression that there was complex emotions going through their mind. It was unreal, yeps. that was what I thought. maybe that's what's parental love is about.

Maybe, I thought I did feel this way. Or maybe I did not.

But I have never felt such intense helplessness. It hurts when the person you love is sick, and you can't do much about it. You can't do anything, and when you try to find words of comfort, nothing comes out. and even when they do, you wonder if they're reaching that person. How many people have experienced this before. Let it be parental love or love, we always wished we had magical powers to ward off the pain he or she is experiencing. Complex emotion. Helplessness, yet not exactly that. It's like a strange fusion of many emotions, complex.

And maybe finally the time comes when I understand that mysterious expression.

Now, Im feeling guilty. Im feeling bad. Maybe perhaps Im asking for too much. Maybe that will cause you to hate me.

Perhaps Im adding to problems, not solving them. And all I desire is to satisfy my selfish wants. Im hopeless.

I need you, by my side. I'm human, and unlike plants, I need love.