why runs are fun

I just ran 21.0km for the second time this week. it was painful, yes, on my knees, legs, especially the thighs and the after effects are awesomely tiring. But it was worth it. Because I feel so refreshed. the thing about running is you can never have a cynical run. you can never run feeling so worthless or skeptical about life because you are supposedly supposed to muster as much positive energy and encourage yourself through the miles. even when you're legs feel like they cannot carry on, you have to.

My timing, 2 hours and 8 minutes. It's slow I know. Im never gonna hit my target of 4'30 for next year's Sundown (my first 42km by the way). I want a good first try that I can be proud about. But long distance running can really be painfully fun somehow. I mean, emo kids should serious try running instead of like slashing themselves. it's painful, yes, but in a healthy way.

I guess it's the Christmas season. a bad time of the year for single dudes because it DOES get lonely sometimes when everyone is like dating and you're left alone. Not exactly left, but hey, I'm only 20. it's not time yet, thats what they all say. oh well. running is the best thing you can do because it makes you feel healthy and keeps you occupied so that you don't think about "foolishly" committing yourself to a relationship OR spending your time hooking up with girls. Anyway, being single is still more productive in terms of accomplishing what you want in life.

the lights of town make me reflect sometimes about last year. What have changed. 2010 was a tough year. My life took a big change. my meaning in life suddenly had to take a drastic change. the me before I enlisted probably did not imagine the me who is going to ORD soon. at times, I miss 2009's December. I don't know if you still think about last year. But it was happy memories wasn't it. anyway, I try not to think too much into the past. Moving on is fine. and running (again) makes things much better .I'm stronger, better, faster now. My piano is improving and I'm just a whisker away from the magic ORD date. life is surely better.

runs are funs. And it takes my mind away from alot of unnessecary bitter, unhappy, sorrowful thoughts. because I think a glass of water after a long run makes you appreciate life for what it is.