Worlds Apart indeed

I said, five days is supposed to be relatively shorter than fifteen days. It felt shorter, yes. But not the perceived duration of five days is pretty vague itself. Which five days. The first five days of the 2 weeks confinement? the middle five days? or the last five days? Theoretically it all seems like the same five days but intuitively the first five days would probably seem the longest for most people. That holds true for myself too. And the five days every week when we book in will feel like the first five weeks of anything. Reason? The need for instantaneous readjustment. Let freedom be water and we transition from ocean to desert. Deprived we are, craving for that weekly oasis in the desert. Where we are let free from the shackles of thirst into the temporal (or imaginary) basin of water.

Everything can be summarized by two words. Monday blues. The morale was evidently lower. Singing four more days to book out day somehow doesn't seem very appealing. The last five days of the first two weeks, when we started singing " four more days to book out day " seemed way more appealing and enticing. Or maybe, energizing.

Tuesday things started settling in as we resign to our fate once again. The feeling of "Ouch ouch I miss home" became less prominent. Only occasionally striking and pinching into our hearts. By Wednesday things reverted to as normal as the middle days of the adjustment period. Morales at the cook house or admin time suddenly seemed more cheerful. By Thursday, we were all pretty tuned to Tekong mood but there is a conflicting sensation of the craving to book out. The conflicting emotions can be a turn off. Generating friction. at least in me. Booking out is always a beautiful thing, but just when you're getting adjusted again-that may be quite a weird feeling.

So this is how time will fly for the next ten weeks. I still can't believe I'm three weeks into BMT..
The second book out felt not close to even a tenth of the magnitude of happiness of the first. This proves the rubber band theory right. The further you stretch, the further you fly. Simple. The more you suffer, the more happiness will follow when the suffering ends. I realized that enjoyment sometimes need not be avoiding hardship or sufferings but comes at the alleviation of these sufferings.

Will blog more tomorrow. I hope I did not breach any rules. I blogged solely emotional aspects and not military aspects. So I assume this is fine.