It's here!

It's here! It's here! Holidays!!! woooohooo

School was very light-hearted today. mainly cause it was the last day. My parent letter tactic worked well. and i had no troubles for not having a mc.

Had chinese orals, which went pretty. bad. yes. bad. it's been like months since I actually spoken any chinese. And I was stammering very badly. And my topic, is about encouraging teens to read. What an interesting topic (/sarcasm).

Now I probably owe lots of stuff that I need to hand in like soon? (for chinese)

Then, break.

Today is an insanely slack day with tons of breaks, and tons of filler/crap lessons (which have absolute no use at all).

H2 break. (it's my lame way of classifying breaks. H2 breaks are >1 hr, while H1 breaks are 30 minutes long.)

After that was a talk on cyber stuff. Blogging and gaming. (mainly). When they were talking about irresponsible blogs, people beside me started to glare at me with great interest. I know, i know, sometimes what I post can be disturbing. Sorry for that, I am a person that is honest when putting down feelings. I am too honest for my own sake. Everyone thinks disturbing thoughts, everyone has their spirit of racism in them, but no one says it. It's like a silent rule of censorship. Ive read somewhere that Assasination is an extreme form of censorship and that is very true. Blogs are not allowed to hurt people's feelings, so to put in bluntly. we are not allowed to speak what others do not want to hear.

Can't bloggers choose what to write and readers choosing what to read, instead of readers choosing what bloggers ought to write.

that doesn't make sense at all, infact, dollars.

Limitations to blogging, certainly is another disturbing rule itself. This proves that a large majority of the blog readers do not have a "intellectual brain filter system". It's like getting hurt by a knife and blaming the knife. You choose to read the blog, you get hurt by it. It's not the blog's fault, it's your fault for choosing wrongly what to read and what not to read.

And I have not written hurting stuff for a long long time.

It was a gasping shock to me that even rumours can be hurting. I mean, rumours, and all the gossips stuff are all over on the newpapers and there's the paparazzi there doing their job. Celebrities are bearing with all the rumours going around. just because some random human being spreads a rumour about you doesn't mean you're going to commit suicide or feel depressed just because of it.

Anyway, what's a blog without food for thought/provoking stuff? Ans: A boring collection of repetitve events.

Why it is that we are brought up to give model answers for everything. Our society even expects us to be hypocrites even in our own journals. Insanely dumb.

With all the emo stuff/suicidal stuff going around. Protecting the fragile bunch of hopeless people isn't going to help things. Just like a ugly dude dislikes looking at the mirror but hiding the mirror from his view isn't going to solve anything.

It's just another "sweep your rubbish under the carpet" analogy. The more you protect people, the more people take it for granted. And in the next 20 years or so, you'll see people commiting suicide over extremely trivial things. I don't know, and I don't know how to state examples for that, you go figure yourself.

As you can see, I am extremely baffled by "blogging censorship".

It's totally not logical. But there's ONLY one logical explaination to explain this entire thing. Generally speaking, the people in charge have 2 solutions. First, to eliminate the disturbing content on blogs by including fines,jail terms and any other form of deterence/punishment. 2nd, educate the public (and the emo, "iwannajump,iwannacut,iwannaflyetc..." bunch) or the oversensitive people not to be oversensitive while reading blogs and blogs should be "not for the fainthearted". Blogs should be a true mirror reflection of one's thoughts, not a watered down version to suit everyone.

And for convinience, the people in charge choose the former. among the 2 solutions avaliable, only the first is feasible and easier to be executed.

Destroying is always easier than creating.

The only possible way to have a society of mentally strong and fit people is to have everyone be able to read each other thoughts.

What happened to the famous quote " I disagree of what you say, but I will defend to death your right to say it ". Apparently, what society is telling me is " I disagree of what you say, but I will hack you to death if you say it ".

Evidently, something is wrong.

True. True. there are people who write hurting comments just for the sake of hurting people. These unjustified flames are totally wrong and should not be posted just for the purpose of evil. That is wrong! however, if i make statements that are controversial (though disturbing in nature), that doesn't mean it's hurting. There will be people who agree, and people who disagree. Just because my side of the argument does not favour yours does not mean that I am hurting you and what you believe. If I say pepsi is better than coke and you're a diehard coke fan, so be it. You don't have to be hurt because I prefer pepsi. Bloggers are here making their stand known, they are not imposing anything on anyone. We trust that readers have brains to figure that out. (but apparently this isn't really evident)...

I have nothing against what the speaker said about gaming.

And then after that talk was another 1.5 hour break. And then was GP (a converted PW lesson). Got back our GP essay test. Though I was really accepting the fact I was going to phail it. I got a really lucky 32/50. I realized I could have gotten higher if I actually had checked my work, OR actually put in some effort into thinking through what I was writing. The topic was " Is the only child a lucky child ". Coming from a family of 4 kids and 3 brothers, I know and experience firsthand the effect that brothers and siblings have on our lifes because I experience the full effect of it. I do not deny that brothers are really emotional support at home and it is only because of them, that's why I feel that I have a bond with my family. Don't overlook that.

There was this plan for the entire class ( at least the guys, which makes up a huge percentage of our class ) to pon Maths tutorial. Turned out, all of us went. but it was a relief teacher. End up watching Ipod video stuff and talking crap and sprouting nonsense. Nthing much actualy, the teacher was teaching functions...and stuff.

Not that i understand a single thing. But I shouldn't really be doing much now because if i actually listen now, I will have nothing to revise before the examination itself. And that makes me guilty. To ensure that I have something to keep myself occupied before examinations, I cannot do my work now.

I sound confident, and that is because I am.