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Orientations have officially ended. And now it's time to post a very official post about PJC oriention 2. Oh, not like Ive been to Orientation 1. Im quite fortunate I din pon anything at all (despite being sick)...and it was fun. And if I say it's fun, it's really really fun because normally most things are decent at max, in my perspective.

Recieved our Opacks today and I was surprised because I didn't expect so much. Hahahaha. Shoebag which looks fairly alright, shirt which is green in colour (slightly gay but nevermind, wear-able, and the O1 shirt is definitely better), water bottle with PJC words on it, and PJC towel. LOL. Great, everything that I was just contemplating to buy soon. I need a water bottle, because..., my current one leaks so often Im going to abandon it soon, and it kinda stinks too. ( my chelasea water bottle bought from ENGLAND woots ). I need a towel because I pespire like it's raining when I play sports. High metabolism, what can I do? And I need a shoe bag because, I can't find my Red ashaway shoe bag. Nice one, love the Opack. Oh and forgot to mention the foolscap pad...

And I skipped my training today. Awww. damn sad la cause last week dun have also. Miss training & badminton manz. I decided to stay throughout orientation becoz I was sick and I can't go for training anyway. But it was fun lah, i can't deny that.

The cheering and songs part i was totally unenthu, as well as Dance revision. firstly, i can't dance at all. Im hell noobish at it, so I don't want to try. Don't tell me about taking risks, been there done that, and sux-ed at it that I dun wan to malu myself by trying again, (not like I will dance properly one day ). I slept throughout the cheering,songs and dance. My forehead was burning I think due to mild or maybe "not so mild" fever. You can say Im cold blooded because once my temp reaches 36.7-3.70 Im starting to feel damn uncomfortable already. Don't ask me why, my body works like this

today played a spiderweb crossing game which was totally ownage. Loved to play except I felt quite useless and a burden to the team because unlike other guys, im vertically challenged. i dun have the height in my legs to jump into the middle "triangle", unlike joshua, desmond and the others. instead, im not tall and im relatively heavy..., damn it la, really felt like a burden and I tried my best not to touch the rope so as to not put futhur burden onto my teammates. kudos to desmond, joshua and the other guys who were the "main supporters" and the "pillar of support" of OG34. You guys were the core and I was the burden. End up we only consecutively got 6 people over, when there were about 20+ pple in our OG (like mani pon today?). Another OG got the whole team over. I took a quite scan of our team. And I saw a tremendously huge girl with thighs with thickness probably double my own thighs. Ok, we can't possibly get everyone over already.....

Fun game, but realized i don't like losing. Alot. I feel very discouraged (instead of encouraged). sometimes, even if you try your best, it may be inevitable to lose. Commitment doesn't always gurantee success. it brings you the furthust possbile, but it still may pale in comparison to what others can achieve. human beings have limits, and there is nothing we can do about it..

What pessimistic thoughts I have. bleargh

Yesterday they made me vow that Im going to stick with my buddy desmond for this 2 days. At least the leadership training. I did. and despite feeling sick I actually went. U know me, normal school days even with important lessons in secondary school or commitments i have, I will STILL pon. i realized ive changed. I become stronger mentally and physically. now i am able to drag myself up while feeling muscle cramps from flu, as well a tightness and aches everywhere (from flu too), and a burning forehead. Not to mention a very inflamed throat and a champion athelete running nose. Not exactly the worst sickness around, but bad enough to keep me binded to my bed, for the entire morning. But i tot of desmond's face and him saying that his "buddy pangseh him". and i felt really bad. no matter what I gotta go to sch.

I gotta stop pon-ing things. I probably realized what I could miss out on...

Im tired, im feverish. Fatigue overwhelming me.

At least it was fun. But anyway i think i shall start accepting things as it is, and move on. Me more optimistic and enthu towards things outside my comfort zone. I should be more prepared to spent my life in school and not be always the "home-sick boy" who want to get home as fast as possible. pertaining to that, my house is 10 mins away and somehow I feel quite at home in PJ. is that a good thing? And I see the same view in certain parts of PJ as my house. How "nostalgic"...

Okay, im not the most enthu person around. infact, i think im lacking in enthuness (yeah not enough nitrogen if you get what I mean). or one expensive way is to buy N70 handphone and to break it into 35 pieces and you're be N2 gurantee comfirm plus CHOP somemore. okay?

I think after this one week break, school will start. Will get to know which subjects I will be studying. and it's time to catch up...

For now, time to stop whinning about the suddenly change of life style. Waking up 7am every morning is kinda killing my mood honestly. I use to wake up at 1pm. Suddenly it's like im suffering from jet lag frm holidays in holidayland. to all my friends still having holidays, you got NO IDEA how envious i am of you guys when I wake up and I picture you guys SLEEPING at home on your sweet comfy bed. I get so jealous that I wanna go back to sleep. Im sleep deprived and tired recently. I use to get like 14 hours sleep during holidays and now reduced to a mere 5-8 hours. Insufficient sleep causes alot problems...and maybe I got sick because I just can't adjust to the new lifestyle's timing.

So far many pple in BP i know in PJC. so not too bad. when im feeling lonely during breaks I got pple to talk to...