school was somewhat bearable but i find myself kinda lost in lectures already.
now to post something from wr's blog.
Things you'd write to 10 people, that you'd never bring up face-to-face with them. Don't mention names.
good luck guessing and ive been really obvious. if you know my friends n me well, you're get it in no time.
1) You're really strange and I dun understand you. One moment, you're my friend. Another moment, your the coldest shit towards me. Not that Im gay, but I think u've changed. I don't blame you for that, the environment you grew up in, the attitude and mentalitiy embedded in your mind causes you to act this way. cold and antisocial and only concerned about your own needs and future. You are overly concerned over your future and getting out of your poverty, and you live a life deprived of many many values. I helped you alot, I treated you like a friend, but you used me like a tool. But still, i don't blame you. Friendship is supposed to be warm, and not cold. Seriously, our friendship is a stale one, and we're both using each other for each of our own mutual reasons. That is our understanding, but I still don't blame you..
2) Your the best pal I know. Though u may gang up with others to disturb me in the past, now you've grown matured and now you really helped me alot in my emotional struggles. When i need someone to talk to, I know you won't reject my need. We were in almost the same situation after prelims, and we worked towards the same goal and aggregate. You were the force that helped me along the way alot in the mental aspect during the struggle against olevel and catching up all the 2 years of work. During those few days, I just think, you're chionging your work too, and I can't help it but get motivated.
3) Thanks for all the help during olevels. Without you, probably i wud be enrolling myself in ITE now. you helped me alot in Chem n Phy. I remember stopping by your house every now and then and you would teach me questions i don't know on the TYS. I rmb studyin lit, and all the other humanities at your house. those times, were tough, but i really treasure those memories. i remember how much i try to curb the temptation to play dota!. Though we did had bad times, you have your own flaws, and Ive learnt to accept them. I believe u do the same towards me.
4) You're one weird shit. One moment you always try to put me down with sarcasm, one moment you're beside me in a lecture hall and we're trying our best to understand what shit the cher is crapping about. We have still many misunderstandings uncleared, and still I really doubt somethings you claim, but ive learnt to give the benefit of the doubt. I do really HATE your bitching and use of sarcasm against me, and I reallly can't help to think you have an issue of inferority complex. PLs heal it ASAP. We're still friends, maybe slightly more than on the suface. I do admit I get furious at things you say and Im can get really get annoyed.
5) You said we're friends, and I let it be.I still treasure our friendship. Recently ive been drifting away, we've commiunicated less, but still, i wanna let you know that i'll still be your friend. not that ive lost interest, ive been tired. I know i hardly talk to you because an aura of uneasiness overwhelms me whenever you're around. I can't help it but feel that and I hope you don't blame me. Ive been pondering nowadays that if one day Im gone will it even make an impact on your life? Do you even need me by your side? I don't know. Sometimes, I think I should just do some disappearing act and vanish from your life, but I don't think that's right. But still, i wanna let you know, i'll always be there to help you if you need it. I'll be your pillar of support. At least try to.
6) Okay. Please don't harass me with Hunter X hunter when Im trying to grasp what the physics teacher is talking during lecture. Haha that was a joke. You're the most loyal person I ever know, though Ive said you were childish, but you were childish in only some aspects, other than that, your perfectly matured. You're really studious and I really see that as your virtue (and i hope you can teach me some stuff which I missed during PAE..hehe). Though sometimes I disliked you, sometimes I liked you, I don't know, it's on and off. But regardless of whether I dislike you or not, we're still be friends, no matter what. It's kinda a oxymoronish thing to say though. Still, thanks for studying with me during the Olevel periods. Without friends like you I wud probably in ITE. Thanks for helping me pass my geog prelim ( i still owe it to you man!). Your the best and without you my humanties would suffer like anything. You're my geog, ss and lit genie during prelim n post prelim days!! haha. thanks pal
7) Your can be the most annoying roommate I know. You live several feet away from me, and we share the same air at night. It's weird. Sometimes, I dislike you honestly, because I envy what you have that I don't. But still, though we're not exactly linked by friendship, we still can have a bond that surpasses ordinary friendship. I caused you loads of trouble, and I know youve endured it throughout the years. Ive deprived your own personal space (literally) for a long time. It's time to give it back to you, but Ireally feel annoyed due to the sudden lack of freedom. You listen to my calls, my chattings on phone, and you probably know me very well. I know that too. You've suffered loads in the past, skin allergy etc..and operations. I was this insensitive bastard that didn't care much then. I cud only feel envy at the things you have that I don't. God is fair I believe, and though I do not have what you have, but he didn't give me so many problems on my body. And lastly, I'll help you if you need any help! Though i doubt you know about my blog or even bother to read it.
8) You are really someone nice, and someone I could trust. You gave me not only morale support, but really really good teachings during the olvl period. Without that, I wud like to say I wud be in Poly or ITE now. You were like a surgeon saving a patient who is on the verge of death. You are not like a nutrionist trying to improve a healthy person's health but a surgeon operating on a half dead human. From the time u started teaching me, you embarked on a tiring and risky journey to rescue me. You knew I coudn't study, you knew I was lazy. You knew I was hopeless in my studies. You knew that I know nuts about science. but still you always said "because we're alike, thats why I know", and im really touched by that. now that im in JC, you constantly remind me of possible routes and ways I could FALL or hurt myself. You prayed hard for my results and my mediocre results was all I cud to do to repay your teachings. Now you're my good pal, though u carn teach me Alvl stuff, you will always remain as a good friend and a tennis buddy.
9) Now, now now. I dont really know what to say. You were a good friend, someone I cud confide in. But along the way, I really disliked your choice of friends, though your friends are my friends to, I might be the one who actually found you a pain in the butt and decided to form my own alliance and you did the same. And as a result, our clan spilt into 2. but now, it's more of less reformed. And i gotta say sorry for all the trouble. I remember our flamings on 08preaks msn groups. We had arguments, quarrels and cold wars, but still....but still, somehow I think we're friends bah? right? Though you may be somewhere else now, and Im in PJC, but once in awhile, we'll meet durin clan meetings! haha.
Grr can't think of anymore pple...
10) Blank WILL BE filled when I think of someone.
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