Ah well

It went fine. I hope. I realize I'm quite a musical idiot. I can't sight read for nuts, tap the right rhythm when required too. I can't even follow beats. Talk about proportionality.

After all, all I did was to plunge deep into all these difficulties and try to sort them all out. What I get, fingers that progressed faster than the mind, or whatever you call that. Musical maturity? I may not be very technical now, but I can foresee myself being so in a couple of years time. By then if I continue to develop at this rate, even Liszt etudes won't be much of a problem.

I am determined now, more than ever. The next stage will be eight, and finally pieces are starting to be rather challenging, and I like that. I think the pieces are manageable, at eight, or even at dip, but I think other aspects are going to kill me, just like how they did today. I am a hardcore memorizer, I read the score once and then work out the best possible way to memorize stuff. If I have a piece played till this point, I have it memorized to the same point. It believe I'm going to end up being someone who either can't sight read at all, or doesn't bother to, or both.

I want to take Gr8 theory because there is this irking feeling in me that I don't understand a lot of stuff. Someway or another, if I familiarize myself with more theory I'll be able to learn stuff more quickly. Anyway, it's been a very long grueling journey against etudes. 10/4 is way above my standard, I'm going to do a quick polish in 2 weeks time and see how things to. I'll be able to play revolutionary, I believe. I think to a decent extent, perhaps I'll use it in dip next time or something.

I'm so motivated that I felt languid during night study today. There was this slight yet persistent flow of music in our conversations that doesn't seem to dissipate no matter how much we try to digress. And failure to do so kills all my mood to study. In fact, it just replaces all the studying energy I have in me, into motivation to go home to mug la campanella (which I just did).

My motivation is sky high now. I think I might be going back to the days where I wake up one hour early just to catch more practice.