Gloomy days ahead

I know I haven't been blogging. It's weekends! Wohoo. Happy. Not.

School. Bleargh. Things not going very well for me. I know it's not nice blogging about such things. but apparently my mid year mess has brought dire consequences to my school life. Now, now. My parents got to see some random HOD (wow crap), but it's better than Wong Ah See. But anyway, I hope they don't class me as "cannot cope" case. because that's just very insulting. Cannot cope and refuse to study/distracted are fundamentally different things though produce very identical results. People who cannot cope are stupid, but people who are distracted are lazy.

Well well. I gotta *bankai for promos.

*bankai is a term used in bleach where shinigami (death god) releases their final form and goes all out (I know this is a shabby definition though).

[im really nice to explain it luh for non-bleachers]

but anyway. principal's talk was really a depressing one. I mean yeps, about kicking people out, retaining and stuff. Now i can finally feel it, if Im continue this way, I will comfirm kenna kick out. So...the only way out. Is to study? Maybe.

Don't get me wrong. I ain't feeling pressure because I am a very last minute person. In the most critical situations, things will go right for me. In things I cannot afford to do badly in, I will do well. So this is the kind of person I am...

Bleargh, enough of crap. Maybe it's just time. to get my lazy arse down and start some studying.
Afterall, I have half a year of crap to catch up with.

Things don't look good ahead. Night study programme. I bet im going to be down for it, complusorily. But i'll go lah I guess. And remedials...wth luh.

But it's just about 2 months. If it's 2 months, I think I can bear with it for awhile. If I know I can't, I would probably be flipping through the poly ads finding a suitable course....

Jc...ain't tough. ain't difficult. It's just. troublesome.

But it's not time to be blabbing about how bad things are. It's about believing myself and wanting to survive in there. To turn the tide, it's not impossible, but it's gonna cost me some time and effort. It's whether I want it or not.

I wonder how far I can go if I can try my best. But nah, I'll go 20% for promos.

Considering I had a negative value in my effort scale for mid years...Bleh.

Gloomy gloomy gloomy days...ahead. For 2 months. Will I survive? Standing on thin ice, it's just like a game, exciting. thrilling. Life can't be fun without these.

Adrenaline rush.

The power of last minute work will save the day again, just like it always did. But please don't fail me this time.

Oh and yeps. Friday was okay. Slack day. Lee eng seng didn't chase me for chinese work. I was kinda lucky and I was actually contemplating to Pon chinese. Useless lesson anyway. Sit there and stone. Then break. then CT. then assembly.

After assembly i went to make up for GP test. I did the topic " Choice is not always a good thing ". LOL LOL. crapped through it. hope I can get something decent cause the weather was really making me sleepy.

Oh and then finally, the last lesson of the day. Chem Prac. Organic synthesis. Was pretty fun actually....I got so little yellow crystals in the end luh...And the entire session, was a glue-sniffing session because the chemicals smell like GLUE...WTH.

Okay. That's about it. My post shall end here. Nothing really amusing happened this weekend.

That moment of several seconds, several steps, though short. I want it to remain like that forever.