These days, events are passing too quickly even for me to blog about everything that happened to me. I have not completed my holiday assignments. 25 questions of chem TYS are really like a mental burden now and I have managed to stagger through half of them this morning, well good attempt and I was surprised I could actually remember quite a decent deal from last year. Guess the half-life of my memory isn't that drastic than I expected....
I have been living in nostalgia for the past week I guess, it's time to wake up and move on. Holidays are over and so is play time. I should really move up and act my age, and also be doing things of my age and maturity and have a mind of what I am expected of. Perhaps the key to the problem is inertia, I don't really like changes in my life. And I find myself maladroit at adaptation.
I guess it's hard to be simple and happy at the simplest things. I find it a great deal to naturally smile these days. To naturally feel happy. Granted, there is always the urge and the push to actually feel the need to induce happiness. The need to say "hey i should be feeling happy with life", with that, it might be the crucial initial step, but what is produced, is nothing but artificial happiness, what I would say is just unnatural. Where did that spontaneous generation of happiness go?
Eventually, what is going on now, what happens now, whatever that will happen, eventually, they will all degenerate and decompose into fragments, vague pieces and then into eventually again into a painful lacuna in our memories, where nothing is remembered. But when that blank is filled with rememberence, it will take more time, to push these matters into void, once again.
But what I would like to say is that my life right now is probably decent. I don't stress out, I don't freak out at school work. Infact, I find subtle joy in doing my assignments, well, compare and contrast with the negativity of interest in doing anything related to school work. School, perhaps is dramatically more enjoyable because of the sudden droppage of lesser and meaningless subjects like project work and chinese.
Ah yes, I should stop this relentless introspection, which will again amount to nothing.
Yesterday, was the first JUMP session of the year, 2008. There was a BBQ organised in this mansion place near Adam's road. Im not sure whether that place qualifies to be a mansion, but it certainly is VERY big, perhaps like at least 5 times the land space of my house, or even more. It has a toilet bigger than the size of an average HDB bedroom. Gasp.
Inevitably, human nature pushes one to actually suffer from sort of a "fantasy" state of mind where even for a spilt second, anyone would wish he could own such an impressive (and I would actually class it as imbals of imbals), home. I did stop and pause and then think. What if I could live in such a house in the future?
The second level of thoughts that went on was how the heck will I be able to afford such a big place in the future? And then finally my thoughts ceased when I my legs touched the real ground (okay, this is a real bad chinese-to-english translations), and I told myself to stop dreaming....
I would probably settle with the cosy, small little house that I might be able to afford with my own money next time. Perhaps a cosy little house would be more comfortable and I am saying this to applease my jealously of such people with imbal-sized houses......,damn.
The session was fun, I guess. but to me, the highlight of the day was a humming game which I was in "last minute" fashion, rope-ed in to help out with the songs. It went like this. Each team had to send one member out and hum a random song, then his or her team has to guess that song. And knowing me, I had to add some really weird songs in it, and amongst them, was Fantasie Impromtu. Humming fantasie impromtu, Benjamin did it really in style, and it was super hilarious. and priceless.
It was a whole day of activity for me yesterday. I was supposed to finish a little of my chem homework but I didn't. And so I have to complete all by today.
Im sick and tired of typing.
Perhaps when more randomness catches up with me, I will blog again.
Till then.
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